Link to Streaming Service (YouTube Recommended)
https://vannadeltafox.bandcamp.com/album/selfleft

Description
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To be honest, I'm a little sad that this time I didn't try to create a story or a short narrative... I didn't even use any particularly interesting or experimental effects... Most of the instruments sound dry, flat, strange... These two tracks are too “heavy” for ambient music, and too boring for active music...
In fact, in a way, I just wanted to make a little ambient music for myself. Not for a game... I know it's a very bad soundtrack, but I don't know how to do it any other way! And I'm not going to learn... In general, I have terrible game music that is not suitable for games at all... And I participate in such jams in order to release my graphomania somewhere. I'm an idiot. An ordinary idiot.
In fact, if you want to get at least some support for the picture you can hold on to, try to imagine a person who is just walking...
...just walking. He walks without any goal, task, or desire. He just walks.

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If I had to talk about any musical techniques that I consciously used, it would be the “falling” melody on the piano... It's a kind of image of everything going downhill. Plot? There isn't one. Idea? Just a man walking.
The swirling “screams” at the beginning of the second track are an attempt to depict a person who has seen death four times. Four times he screamed, moaned, but survived. And in vain.
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Made in an unreasonably short period of time. In fact, I spent about 6-7 hours on these two tracks... And the result is so-so: both in terms of melody and the final mix... There are a lot of unpleasant clicking or just sharp sounds that may bother you. The bass in the first track is dull and hurts your ears... The drums seem to be trying to develop through three versions, which gradually overlap each other... But nothing interesting seems to be happening. It's just a simple movement “to nowhere” without any development of melody or ideas... And then there's the ending — abrupt, sharp, because I don't know how to fit into the time frame of the final length of the composition. In short, ordinary non-musical graphomania. As usual.
The second track is even worse — more boring, and just as bad at pretending to be “ambient.” What kind of strange percussion “overload” plays the same rhythm throughout the entire track? I imagine it as “sound pareidolia” — imagine any word/phrase in place of this sound. But still — it turns out so-so. And if you add slightly ear-piercing synths in every second half of the piano part — then I don't even know what it is. Is someone squeaking? Is someone singing? Was someone too lazy to mix normal instruments, so they just decided to add a strange screech? What difference does it make? It still hurts the ears.
Marimba, similar to a xylophone... strangely mixed and hurts the ears.
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No idea. No plan. No logic. Not even the most basic desire to do something normal. There is nothing interesting or pleasant here. I didn't want to publish these two tracks at all (as well as several other projects for other jams), but I decided to publish this one in particular because I really wanted to satisfy my EGO by showing at least some kind of result to the invisible ones. Can you see them? I can't see them either. They're not there.
They're not there because there's nothing interesting here.
As usual.
Thank you.

Lessons Learned
Please, never cross the frozen desert alone. You will freeze to death.