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Hi! :)

I'm tired again, can't help it. I was ill this weekend, but now I feel better. I wish I would've been able to write earlier.

Some people wondered if Cooper and Andy (?) will be together, because the relationships were so catastrophic. That's why I am so sure what we got, as an ending for now, is pretty fantastic. Let me correct this... What I mean is people weren't always sure they will be together, so how they finally got together (and stayed together) is realistic enough, in my eyes.

I realized how this song Call Me is relatively known, but the other songs from them aren't. Then I guess you don't connect the best events with that song. Well, you can call yourself worldly or rather experienced or well educated, something like this. I am not joking. I have no experience with an x or multiple x ...

Oh uhh I wasn't able to finish Sal's route. It's something I will keep in mind for sure though. Now that I was out cold, for even a few days only, I have to catch up few things here and there.

Tyson's 8th day, yes I know you don't have to tell me everything. I of course played at least his happy end.

I think I only met the wrong guys anyway on my hunt.

Are the wrong path decissions so... adventurous?

There's alot I still want to read and I hope I have time for everything, sigh.

Ahahaha were you modeling a humanoid male with female genitals or the opposite around? :P You totally remind me of Devilman Crybaby again... There is something like this.

(The music from that anime is good!)

I was watching my least favorite movie with Corvius, who didn't know it, on saturdays. The movie was propably mentioned by me, maybe not, it's called Casualties of War and has to be the most realisic and insane anti-war-film today. It is based on true events and takes place in the Vietnam-War.

You seem to be emotional over something if you connect to it, like Ty's death. So, should you watch this movie try not to feel anything, yeeaaaah.. I had tears in my eyes even the second time watching. 😩

Corvius gave the movie a good 9/10 and he is very critical in rating movies/series.

Is Skyrim really such an awsome game? I realized PWM (Perfect World Mobile) is just another boring MMO game with excelent graphics and a boring long story. You have to be in a guild and dedicate at least 4 hours a day into this game or any number like this. Well, first I was like “wow this game is soo awsome I can play as a beastsoul wohoo!!“ then “oh cool another quest on a random place you find automatically, sure let me talk to more people from different races and finally win a fight against some weird monstrosities or bad people or die and respawn then do it again“)

No Thanks!

(The beastmen though... They would be PERFECT in a visual novel. They're really 🔥)

Ha good I could think of one more bad-guy-best-friend. Echo's dog “who knows what his name is“ isn't fully in the clear either if you ask me. Right... Leo.

There are others too, I am sure.

I like bara alot too, but I can still appreciate Tennis Ace's or Password's cgi's, because they're are very much likeable.

Although after comparing some of these sprites with EA's sprites I have to say EA's are not looking all that impressiv now. (Spencers only) The sex scenes are fully flashed out, especially the shower scene, but what in the world happend to their faces??? The expressions are really just so wrong! And what is with the missing backgrounds everywhere...? WolfBite Interactive earns so much money, more than they deserve honestly and other visual novel creators are doing a much better job with the story, character expressions and more!

I am not sure if your fangirling with EA will ever stop though. 😈

Okay where was I? You like women in real life, big men with hair in virtual reality? (^^) That's cool, it opens up more options and you are definetly more at ease with both genders I suppose. You remind me a bit of Princess Bean, for no particular reason ... 😅

I don't really hate doing things on my own as long as I know there are still people around. (If) What you're talking about sounds like a marvelous childhood. You make me yearn for the old or entirely new days, don't do that. 😓 I want to head to a better future now...

What? Why are you learning how to program?? You propably even started with it before me! Hmm, which language, of the main ones, did you choose? I have to learn Python for what I'm going to do shortly. I plan on learning C, C# and more also. I hope to become such a fantastic programmer like the main protagonist of The Bruns_LLC book series. I know it's a big goal and I hope I will reach it. (A shapeshifter series I once talked about)

(I know SoloLearn, the other one not sure)

Is this creation pack for Skyrim a mod or are you creating brand new characters?

Tell me more about Harvest Moon if you think it's that good. I don't want to search for it right now.

Corvius wants to see The Human Centipede 1 later down the line. Should I prevent it from happening? It does sound truly horrible to me. Though more gross is thinking about humans who would actually do that.. for fun......

Tusk? The translation doesn't really reveal anything. Do you wanna tell me some 'harmless' things?

Before I forget: Stormsinger Studios published a new VN and they finally got a Patreon account (or whatever you call it). It is very new and is called Santa Lucia. From the pictures I can already tell it looks very nice. I played a couple minutes, but haven't had more time. The game entrance is “interesting“ everything after that is left for you to check out.

Whatever, this has to be enough now. Currently the clock reads 02:17, soo good bye for now and have a great week or sunday first I suppose.

PS: apropo nausea that's what I had amongst other things. ;/

PPS: still not finished with Adastra sry.

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Samtoinette6 years ago

I've listened to quite a few of Shinedown's songs. I have to be in the mood for them because it's like mellow rock music, but I do get into the mood at times.

Choosing the 'wrong' person isn't necessarily adventurous, but it's kinda cool to see them in their element.

Dean asks if he has to be jealous of you and Ty. When he asked that, out loud I was like "yes."

Other than him, nothing really exciting happens.

Hoss' route is surprisingly sweet though.

Uhh... Well, I certainly don't have an aversion to futanari (chicks with dicks), but it's not my favorite... I can't completely reconcile what I desire sometimes. In a way, my heart wants my best friend but we broke up years ago due to my own stupidity. We still discuss it sometimes too. Kinda pisses me off because I keep trying to move on but I honestly just love him so much.

I don't actually like war films. The only one I can think of that I liked was Dear John and that was a romantic drama.

Skyrim is really good. Honestly it's best on PC because that's where the majority of mods are. The consoles are too limited to have some of the really good ones (Such as Schlongs of Skyrim or OSA/OSex). Some people hyper sexualize their games, but I just like it for the added realism. Oh! You should watch some of Gopher's playthrough! He's so immersed in playing that he 'becomes' his character. He plays with mods, but he tries to keep it as close to vanilla (modless) as possible. This will show you what the game is like. He plays a thief in this playthrough and he chose to stray from the main quest line.

Obviously I like Password and Tennis Ace too.

I always try to give them the benefit of the doubt. They probably have a full job to do and making VN as a hobby. Bane's the only one I think is overpaid for what they do. Kiss Blackgate goodbye because it just seems to be losing steam fast.

Err... Mostly it's for my schoolwork. My future career will be in computers and it's mandatory to take a programming class for my certificate.

I'm focusing on Python because that's what Skyrim uses. C and C# are like the building blocks of more popular scripting programs. They're like the Latin of the computer world.

Creation Kit is a program released by the developers of Skyrim. Honestly the devs (Bethesda, Beth for short) are on the lazy side and I think they release it so modders can flesh out their game more.

For instance, the intro to Skyrim you're riding in a carriage (I won't say why), but the rest of the game the carriages act like fast travel points. Pay the driver (only for the main cities), climb in back, and the screen goes black to a loading screen and you show up near the carriage of the place you paid to go.

Modders made mods that either add carriages to the other smaller towns that act as fast travel points, or (what I use) an entire mod that gives you the experience of riding through the country in a carriage.

There's also a mod that enables a lot of vanilla aspects that Beth didn't bother to finish, called Cutting Room Floor.

There's ones for more followers (otherwise you can only have 2, one humanoid and one pet), improvements on vanilla followers, changing the AI to make them feel like real people... There's also some really silly ones, such as a trumpet sound for skeleton's footsteps or cursing crabs.

I use 5 silly mods. 3 that kill NPCs for repeating certain lines that are said constantly (Condescending: "...Someone stole your sweetroll?", Condescending;shortened: "Have you been to [rich town]? What am I saying, of course not.", Sincere but overused: "...I took an arrow to the knee.") And two that change the loading screens to say hilarious stuff by a madman in the game.

The Creation Kit (CK) is a bit buggy, but you can make a lot of things with it. Change/add voices, change outfits, adjust who can die or not, make quests and/or followers, make player homes, fix up vanilla things to look better (NPCs, homes, weather, etc).

Beth releases a CK with most of their games, but their last good game was Skyrim, which was originally 32-bit, released in 2011. The 64-bit version, Skyrim Special Edition (SSE), is less buggy and was released in 2016.

They also do a post-apocalyptic game you may have heard of called Fallout.

Fallout 4 was boring and nothing like its predecessors, showing how little they really care anymore. Fallout 3 and New Vegas were sooo much better. They also have Fallout Shelter which is a mobile game. I've barely played it.

They tried their hand at MMO games and failed spectacularly. Stay away from ESO (Elder Scrolls Online) and Fallout 76.

They're bad at listening to what the fans want. We've been asking for a multiplayer function to play with just friends, not an MMO.

Well, in the Harvest Moon games you're a farmer. The first few just focused on farming-- dealing with crops and livestock. Friends of Mineral Town, to my knowledge, was the first to do three things differently. First, there was an entire town full of people to get to know. Second, there was marriage candidates to woo. Third, they released a female version named More Friends of Mineral Town.

The unfortunate thing was that you could only woo the opposite sex.

Story of Seasons had improved on that a LOT. There's still crops and livestock, and villages/towns to get to know people, but they also added customization. While you can still only marry the opposite sex, you can make your character look like either a boy or a girl. Some people said they did that and pretended the resulting child was adopted.

Obviously it's a relaxing sort of game. There's no danger to your character aside from passing out due to lack of sleep and/or stamina.

Many people prefer Rune Factory because it's like Harvest Moon/Story of Seasons but with monsters to fight in the mine and stuff.

Uhh... Human Centipede 1 has a guy sewing people's mouths to other people's asses.... You can imagine how gross that gets. I'm trying not to gag just thinking about it.

As for Tusk, it's nowhere near as disgusting as Human Centipede, but it's just really unsettling. Basically a guy gets kidnapped by a crazy guy that knocks him out and sews his body together to make him into a walrus.

I downloaded Santa Lucia a few days ago, but haven't played it yet.

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Rotun Noctis6 years ago

Nice, you already anwswered.

This is not my time to show up with a new wall of text (maybe tomorrow:), but I have something to share.

I finally started on reading a story, I once found on wattpad and added to my list. You wouldn't believe it the story GoldWater High School was actually written by a former US soldier! Apparantly there was a time he left wattpad completely and in one extra chapter he tells us why (that's why I know he was a soldier).

This is just so amazing that I have to share it.

Take care ✌️

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Rotun Noctis6 years ago (1 edit)

Im not sure I listened to all of their songs, but what I heard was good music only. Though are you whitewashing or do you mean it? I feel like you are comparing their songs with others and you mean like Shinedown is for a mature audience.

I used Shazam on one song that played on the radio and now I have 5 songs of the same band “Sunrise Avenue“ on my phone.

Apropo 'wrong person' I have to get back to reading The Raven King... Ohhh I like it soo much! Right now the story is leading to a “pointe“ (literary mean (?)) I hope will be good.

Well, maybe you learned one thing or two that might be helpful for avoiding bad people. “Kinda cool“ and “in their element“ means watching them drown themselves in alcohol and drugs... Or hurting other peoples feelings, such as yours? You don't have to go into the details, if you don't want, I can already imagine.

Here's an important question: Are you smoking or alot around people who do? (There's an important reason behind this question)

I absolutely DISLIKE war movies! The thing with CoW is it's based on true events, it's very realistic, the effects are incredible, the music is also so nice and the acting is on point. I don't like what's going on, but that doesn't mean I don't like the movie. It's your choice really..

Uh romantic AND drama? Please spare me.

Hey! Why don't you watch it and you suggest any movie you like me to watch and I'll go straight to it?! A win win for both sides.

Tell me if it is negotiable. Can't write this line in the above one, because of the stupid bug ._.

I feel you. I was just like you to some regard. I was too young, naive and overall not very smart about this. We were friends and somehow we found out we're both (maybe I turned him...) gay, so we kissed, but only once I think. In that night it happend that he wanted “more“, but I did not. Not short after this I blew him off. As a friend as well as a “lover“. I am glad though I was a teenager, who wasn't even 18.

For his sake I hope he is not into men anymore. Living like this in a country like mine is not impossible, but always burdensome.

I told you about him twice or so, though never many details.

Apologise sincerely and don't work yourself up over it. I don't know honestly. I am lucky, I have no best buddy. 🙃 But I wish I could care for a very good friend, that's for sure. NO, no suicide you won't get me this time either!!

Don't suffer over it, don't dwell on what is behind you. Go forth, look on the bright side of life and have no fear! Pretty sure your country or state is much more thrilling than my could ever be.

You made me a little sentimental there.

In the city, my older sister is currently living in, they just now had an attack where a guy tried to get into a synagogue on the most important jew holiday, but killed a passerby and another person in a restaurante nearby instead. Two people died, but a massacre failed, thankfully. I heard in the radio they call it a terror attack... And in the UK happend something too, but I'm not sure what exactly.

Truth behold sex adds realism to any game, if it is a good thing is another question. The video is now on pause in my youtube app. Aand watched it, the guy Gopher is pretty comical. How he complains about everything that happens in the game is annoying and funny at the same time. But even better is how he is so nonchalant.

Yeah Password and TA are awsome, very well crafted games. Now they have a new rival. Santa Lucia's first scenes are alot to my liking. Have you played through it? I already know who my crush is this time. It's so easy, there's no thinking it over. Try guessing it if you want.

When I wrote I like “bad guys“ I forgot to mention I also enjoy reading about the mysterious or introverted guys and girls, cracking them open like a shell. Combined, in a person like Tyson, is a dream come true. Although Tyson is rather hardly mysterious. ;/

I see, that's great! I wanna do it for my living too. What inspired me to do so was the book series Bruns_LLC. I already told you about it at some point, maybe you'll remember. In that series the main character is a computer or programming nerd who writes programs “faster than your eyes' blinking“. I know how hard it will be getting there, but let me at least have a good try.

How matching *chuckle* I have to learn Python for what I'm going to do.

So, are you using SoloLearn for studying?

C is one of my goals too.

I know, I know geeez mods are not new to me. Did I read that right you can make basically custom mods easily with this tool? (CK)

It sounds Like alot of fun. Are you playing together with other people or singleplayer?

I never got into any of these games. Watching, what my subscribed channels play, is all I need.

If it comes down to “what kind of MMO's have you played?“ or “what MMO is the highest on your ranking?“ or “have you seen the new MMO which released earlier that day?“ call me a layman. I guess I'm good in Jump' n Run and not experienced enough with MMO's, open world like games in general.

There's a game I wanna play soon. It was made by an indie developer and is the sequel to BrightRidge. Yes, it is a mobile game, but one with a totally open world. There's no way around with being impressed by this man's work! The games name is Vandgels.

Ahhh nice, do you want me to watch Tusk then? THC is a no-go for me. Tusk on the other hand could be good.

When I watched “In The Tall Grass“ (Netflix Original) I thought it will be a bad ass horror movie. What I got was a thriller. I wish something more would've happend with the characters, but I don't dislike the film.

Ae I said Santa Lucia is top notch. The characters are alot like Morenatsu's, though the story and place is much different. Who do you think is my crush? The MC is a cat this time btw. I first didn't notice it at all and thought it's a dog. 🤭 I guess my obsession with dogs has gone too far. . . Nevermind. Other characters are a panda, a squirrel, a tiger, a fox, a dog AND you can choose to have a relationship with Ben's (default MC name) best friend from the childhood. She is the only datable girl (for now possibly), the squirrel.

“Werewolves“ another thing I am on at the moment is getting more and more exciting. So far I chose not to have deeper-going relationship, because of a choice I made in the beginning. You can play the game either violent/with brute force or pacifistic/peaceful. The achievements make sense and even though I read many pages by now I still haven't unlocked 50%.

Did you ever, on any point in our long conversation, think I might be a prankster who only tells lies? In the beginning I was curious if you were 'real' or not, but after we wrote so much about us, nobody could just make up (in that time), I was sure you told the truth.

Just something minor to think about. ;)

I never lie today. I was a normal-tier lier as kid though. Sometimes I say partially the truth or I say nothing. They may say lies protect the unbearable truth, but I think truth is the path that leads to success and righteousness.

If someone would ask me “Hey, hey you, you gay or something?“ I would simply say yes I am indeed.

Tomorrow is WE YUS more free time!

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Samtoinette6 years ago

I'm not quite sure what you mean by 'whitewashing', but I was simply saying I don't want to listen to them all the time. I neither implied they were only for mature audiences or compared them to others. I just meant they're not a style I like all the time.

I don't smoke or hang out with smokers anymore... Why do you ask?

I'm not gonna watch CoW, honestly... Realistic war films just depress me and I already take medication for depression. I don't need to exacerbate it.

Well was he insistent about going further than a kiss, even after you said no? If so I understand distancing yourself, but the way you worded it sounds more like he respected your wishes but you still turned away from him.

I don't know about thrilling... We have had constant domestic terrorist attacks, it seems like, for the past several years and it only got worse when our current president was elected. There's a shooting every week, I swear. Though I haven't heard about the big ones, such as a school shooting or church shooting in a few months. I don't pay super close attention to the news though. It's all the same thing on a different day, and the media just over-exaggerates the importance of certain things.

I really like Gopher. His play style is nothing like my own. He's so immersed he becomes his character, whereas I play the same pretty much every time I pick it up... I want to try his style of just being one thing. I've never played as a simple farmer, or an assassin only. I've never played as just a mage or warrior. I want to, but I wind up doing a little of everything when I play.

Right now, however, I can't play the game because it keeps flickering on the main menu and I can't figure out why... I know it's because of the script extender because vanilla Skyrim works without any problems, but I don't understand why that would cause an issue... On top of that I have my schoolwork to do and a newsletter for my mom's Bluegrass Association. *sigh*

We normally seem to have the same taste, so I wonder if you really like Carlos cause I sure do. The quiet types are my thing. I love breaking through that shell.

I don't think it's possible for a human being to be that fast in real life, honestly. You can only go as fast as your body will allow, and blinking only takes a few microseconds.

I used SoloLearn one day. That was it. Just once. I got distracted. I honestly hate learning programming, but it's such a helpful thing to learn... I just don't totally want to.

Haha, sorry. Looks like I annoyed you by talking about mods too much. I just didn't know if you'd ever played with them or not. It's not possible on Android and I don't know what kind of games you play(ed) on the computer.

I don't think 'easily' is the word. It's easier than making a mod without a CK, but the CK is seriously confusing in some areas. There's tutorials, but I have a hard time taking that knowledge and applying it to something different than what they taught me.

I guess I wasn't clear, but sadly Bethesda games are single player, except for their terrible MMOs.

I'm not going to insist on it, but Tusk isn't a bad movie. It's just a bit slow. The concept, while disturbing, is kinda cool. If you want to give it a shot, by all means. It's not gross like THC.

I'm not sure where you got the idea you can date more characters in Santa Lucia, but right now it looks like the only dateable characters are Bryan, Carlos, and Nate... They didn't specify if they'd add more later, though I wish they would. Ben already calls Chris cute, which I agree, and Russell calls Ben cute a few times.

If you read the info of the game, under the "love interests" it clearly says "These are the three characters Ben has the opportunity to pursue a relationship with over the course of the game."

It's "THE three characters" that sounds like they won't add more, but who knows. I didn't look at their stretch goals on Patreon.

Honestly, I was friends with a prankster in high school who pretended to be three of my friends at the same time without me knowing. I was heartbroken when I found out. Since then I don't really care if people are lying to me about who they are or not. I'm just myself, and if I later find out the person was a fake, I'm disappointed. However it doesn't really matter too much. Hell, turned out an ex of mine was playing with my heart. I REALLY stopped caring after that.

Besides, 98% of the people I meet online don't seem to be faking it.

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Rotun Noctis5 years ago

That's Tusk?

Oh forget about it, I understood it wrong. That's fair, I have so many different songs from so many different music genres, on my phone, and I listen to like mostly 3 similar genres all the time.

If you are not against it I have two more songs to show you.

The second song is from a band called Hot Chilli Peppers, so you propably know it. It's an old song. How old I don't know though.

I really like listening to this song at times. Not long ago I randomly found it, again.

Make sure telling me “I feel overwhelmed“if it's getting too much.

I absolutely love this song!

says “Every song that is titled “OCEAN“ is just fvcking good“. I get them.

The second top comment says: “Every song that is titled “OCEAN“ is just fvcking good.“ I can mostly agree. I mean one of the most famous hillsong songs is called “Oceans“. That's gotta be worth something, right?

If you want send me some links too. I am always happy to have some “new songs“ which I can add to MX Player. I would be surprised if there aren't a couple we both like.

You propably heard of it. If you are passiv smoker you inhale *more* pollutants than the smoker themselves. I know it's hard to believe, so google it if you want to know more about it. I, by now, heard it more than twice from different people.

Ah that's too bad, but what can you do... Watching CoW a second time wasn't any less burdensome than watching it for the first time. So, agreed it's not hard not to crave for it.

But why medications, why is that?

Two, or was it three, of the people who started the "further education“ with me were in a psychiatric facility (possibly another wrong word). I don't think it's something to be ashamed of. You are not always responsible or even involved, when life goes down-hill for you.

Currently there's no sign that shows me that I'm depressed, but tired and lonesome I am. When I'd look on the birght side I would say I belong to the place of “further education", because all who join there are just as broken or more broken than myself. (God I hate my mode of expression sometimes!)

Most of them do have their quirks, like you and me, so it should be pretty obvious; there's more understanding in this place, more than I ever encountered in my life. Many of them are heavy smoker. The reason why I was asking, I guess.

Might as well talk more about what happend... I don't remember it all very well, but it was more like what you understood, from what I still know. We were about going to sleep when he asked me to join him for some 'fun'... I turned him down and he was crying afterward. (I heard it, couldn't sleep) Why is beyond my horizon of knowledge, because we never talked about it. It was very odd. Now I am much more thoughtful, mature, less naive and not frightened or shy at all. Talking about the circumstances would definetly be easier for me, by todays standards, at least.

Just... Wow, your country sounds not messed up, it sounds like a secret war is happening in the shadows... But even though we don't have as many attacks anti-Semitism and right-minded people in general are a strong force in my country. Thinking about these stupid individuals makes me wanna live on another planet entirely... Sure not everyone was born with an equally high IQ, but ffs this goes further than stupidity could ever bring forth!

You sound like me, for real. I hate watching our favorite news channel. At least 70% from what news they have to report is bad news and like you said it's often the very same thing.

Media is a two-edged sword and will remain as one. (“two-edged sword“ is originally a german saying I think)

Choosing one class only is considered a challenge in games where you can be more than only an archer, for example.

Good, if you are so busy right now my writing would only be an unnecessary distraction anyway. Well, sometimes you need distractions before you can think properly about what you wanna do at this time. For me clearing my head is important, because of my ADHS, else I wouldn't be able to concentrate good+long enough.

Learning Python on my own (for the moment) is a piece of work, but I don't want to give up.

Do you think it has something to do with your pc or is it the games fault?

And did you write “Bluegrass Association“ so I asked for it? I have no idea what your mom is doing, with only that info in hands.

You got it right ;) Carlos is my second biggest furry crush after Tyson these days. Although Hyper and Torahiko are not far behind, if any. I wonder where Car's scar has come from. Is he propably more like Ty than we know and think? (The name Carlos is too long. He needs a nickname, maybe yours is better.)

Oof course it's not. I see you're messing with me. 😌 If you didn't notice I wrote that statement in quotation marks. Mark (name of the protagonist) is just so insanely good and passionate about his work. For him typing commands into the console is for us like writing.

Modding is not impossible on Android. It's just almost non existent.

I totally get that. While learning Python you have to try the coding for yourself, but you are doing math basically. In math classes you only solve mathmatic equations and stuff. You hardly every create them on your own.

Okay my bad then. I thought you could already choose, what was her name, Kathrina or something and Russel. I believe Russel is going to be a route. Would you choose him over Car? I assume you would not date Kathrin. It wouldn't really make sense though if every character, besides teachers/parents etc. was datable. Side characters are an unmovable object.

I didn't look at their stretch goals either. I wonder if they already have some.

Sounds to me like he is the biggest jackass.

You and me of sorts remind me of Neil (Nathaniel) from the book series I am still reading.

I was close friends with some when I was in school and younger. Now there isn't anyone left who could try breaking my heart....

It's propably because online you are anonymous, so you can be whoever you want to be or be an open book. It makes sense when I think about it. I would be open like that outside of the internet too, only to nice people though. Whatever someone thinks of you can't be as desicive as what you know about yourself, how you see yourself (~Cool Kids - Echosmith (good song)) and who you are.

Still tired, more sleep is urgently needed. This week hasn't had passed with one day with me sleeping 8 houres. Tomorrow for us is Saturday, yeah!

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Samtoinette5 years ago

Yep, that's Tusk.

I'm not a Red Hot Chili Peppers fan and never have been. I think it's mostly the singer's voice that I don't like, but I never sat and listened enough to figure out why I don't like them.

Ah, yeah, I've known second-hand smoke is worse than actually smoking for a good 15 years now... God that makes me feel old, haha.

Well... I guess I'll just be honest. I mean, I'm 28 years old, 29 in February. While my life wasn't constantly horrible, I've been through some stuff that scarred me. I suffer from depression, social anxiety, and PTSD. It's not easy just getting myself to leave the house. I've always been a little paranoid, but it got ten times worse when I was 17 and really bad things happened in my 17-22 years.

As a result, I've been on medications for the last 6 years or so. My initial dose of antidepressants has since been doubled, and I had an antianxiety medication added onto it. I also take D3 over the counter because I don't get out much, and that's the main vitamin you get from sun exposure.

Geez, sounds like you were both drunk and he was an emotional drunk. I honestly think it was a little harsh to cut him from your life because he cried over not sleeping with you, but I can see how that could be construed as insistence.

Yeah, it feels like there's a secret war... I can't bring myself to hate the neo-Nazis we have here because there's an entire war on white people.

Speaking of, sounds like your country still struggles with some of that... Though, honestly, my brother has anti-Semitic views as well, despite being part Jewish... I was going to go into more detail, but I don't want to offend you in case you are Jewish. Never know.

My mom's a professor and makes sure to remind her students that the news, like everything else, is another form of entertainment. They want more views just like everyone else, so you can't believe everything they report.

I finally figured out the reason the game flickered on the main menu; it was some issue with the default .ini file. I removed everything and reinstalled which fixed it.

No? I wrote "Bluegrass Association" because that's just another thing that I've committed to help with. My mom is part of a group that gets together monthly to play Bluegrass music... I don't recommend that style, personally, as it's not my thing but you may like it. I dunno.

Typically, Carlos is shortened to Carl.

Speaking of, after checking the stretch goals, THAT'S where the others get routes. Chris, Katarina (I always get her name wrong too, I always think it's Katrina), Russell, and that hooded dude from the beach scene before the character passes out for a nap.

I've learned how to stay quiet in situations I should be respectful, but I definitely speak my mind too much in public. My mom still corrects me at times because I forget to say simple things like please and thank you.

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Rotun Noctis5 years ago

Had to rewrite parts of my text again. Sigh

I hope my wall makes up for the elapsed time. ;) It's not a ton, but you didn't exactly gave me alot to work with. :P

Nice, I'm gonna watch it tomorrow though. My dad and I were watching Shaun of the Dead earlier this evening. It was bad, very bad. I expected alot more from such an overhyped movie. Sure not everything was terrible. There were a few good, funny scenes, but it wasn't really enough to have me hooked. Zombieland is so much better. I plan on watching it's second movie that has released not long ago very soon.

Hot Fuzz is from the makers of Shaun of the Dead and far greater.

Have you seen In the Tall Grass by now? You will propably hate it in all honesty. I can see it being too boring for you.

Hmm, nothing I can do about that. :/

Which bands are to your liking again? I am constantly adding more songs to my MX Player playlist. It's awsome! Now, because I started driving, I actually listen to radio music and sometimes I find forgotten songs or I like new songs, which I again can add. The newest single of Coldplay Isn't the best, from what I heard. Maybe you heard it too and liked it?

Ahh good, good. Where I am “studying“ now I'd say half of the people there are smokers. I don't know about you, but I will never understand the fun part of smoking. I will propably even buy a relatively cheap training-mask, which is labeled as “High-Altidude-Endurance-Maske“, whatever that means. I know you're rather not a sports person, but training their lungs would hurt nobody. The rating is good and I trust the company who, so to say, tell we disregard how important well funtioning lungs are, especially for athletes.

You can think of me as a sports freak if you want, it fits.

Currently I am able to wear my 20 kg (up to 30) weight vest in the forest and even do a few pullups with it, which I'm pretty proud of. 😊

OMG cut it!!! 😂 No, we were not drunk and I am sure he wasn't crying because I didn't want to... do... “things“. My guess is he cried because he was homesick. Why he would be that I am completely unsure of. But whatever it was and happend there stays there.

The past is the past and the present or future is now or tomorrow. I pretty much hated learning what happend when and who won which war or who developed which item/device/formula... magic spell. The history class was boring for me, even though I wasn't terrible at it.

Humans never seem to learn from past events, so why bother with learning about them...? Perry Rhodan is the best book series when it comes to Peace, Freedom and Humanity anyway and it's science-fiction.

I may not have had the most terrific childhood or parents one could think of at all, but the older I grew the lonelier I got and whatnot....

29 sounds old, but is it really? My older sisters boyfriend is 29, I think, and she is going to be 23 (I think). There's still plenty of time to... work AND have fun.

I'm jewish? How come? We already talked about it. Like you I grew up in a entirely christian family. I can't remember if you talked about how your parents reacted to your coming out as bisexual. My parents wouldn't reject me from their family, but they wouldn't be happy with my “decission“ like at all. My dad would understand it the best, because he *was* gay himself, he told me... There was this one time I used to download free gay ebooks with my parents account. Now though they seem to believe I'm straight as uncooked spaghetti.

Isn't it a cruel world sometimes?

You propably won't understand, but it helps me reading from terrible fates like Neil Josten's to get over “my own little nightmare“. I still really recommend this book series. The writing feels like it actually happend and is not fiction. Or it feels like the author experienced very similar things. Well, let me tell you I hope not.

Right now, 70% into the second book of this triology, Neil knows he will be gone from this world soon. I can't describe how good these books are! Neil is only a “second“ identity to protect him by the way.

I know there is only so much every individual human can bear, but you will make it through the pain and suffering and possible hatred. Believe in yourself, because I do!

Here are some quotes from The Raven King:

[...] Neil shook his head. He didn't know how to explain the fear eating a hollow knot in his chest. Something like this demanded complete honesty, and Neil had been lying since he was old enough to speak. He didn't know how to tell the truth now. [...]

[...] Guilt was a relatively new emotion for Neil, something the Foxes were teaching him through prolonged exposure to them. Up until this point he felt it in umcomfortable, fleeting bursts. Now it was a fierce all-consuming heat that made him want to cut his own stomach out. He didn't know if he was going to puke or scream. [...]

[...] Neil flinched. He'd pushed because he needed to see that horrible smile crack. He needed to know if 'unknown' was screaming behind the euphoria his drugs fed him. But 'unknown' wasn't, and Neil couldn't live with that. [...]

[...] “Better luck next time, Neil,“ he said. “I warned you once already, didn't I? I don't feel anything.“ “Anymore,“ Neil said, barely a whisper. [...]

[...] Guilt, grief and pain were corrosive toxins in his veins, tearing him apart from the inside out. He let them, made them, because these memories were awful but they were things that made sense. That aching loss was all he knew and understood. If he lost sight of them all he had was the unfamiliar cruelty he'd witnessed tonight. [...]

[...] Apparantly death wasn't enough cause to shake the routine. [...]

[...] “Neil,“ 'unknown' said, “between you and me, I don't think you've ever been fine.“

As you can see there's absolutely nothing fun, happy or enthusiastic in at least the first and, I assume, second book too. It makes you wonder if there's going to be a happy end at the end of the last book. If not I couldn't live with it, it's not *fair* towards the characters. I know the word 'fair' is naive, but it serves the righteousness. If you don't want black and white order & chaos remain and somehow fairness.

What I think is there are news channels that indeed want views, so that is their only interest, but in my eyes there are also channels that tell the truth. Maybe all channels exaggerate, though it would be fine with me.

Glad to see you got things working.

I never heard of Bluegrass music. It sounds to me like Smoke Weed Everyday... I'll give it a shot.

I prefer Car. If you pronounce it a bit different and roll the 'r' it sounds better imo. That's just my opinion though. :)

Oh yes please the hooded guy is on my favorites list very high. He appears to be a rhino, right? You and me like mysterious/closed up characters. I like them if they wear hoods even more. But you forgot about the panther. He needs his own route too or is he one? I forgot.

Another thing where we're alike. I have a problem with elders (?). I love being free, I love being unbound, and unresponsible “for me it looks like we can do whatever we want“ (Venom). I love Venom, he is easily one of my favorite characters, ever.

I dunno if I have told you this. The night time I like the most. It's so peaceful and if I happen to watch something scary and get scared the feeling passes in a rush. Night walks in a group are the best! :D

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Samtoinette5 years ago

I don't give you much to work with on days I catch the response first thing in the morning... Like today.

That's how I feel about Shaun of the Dead, but my mom loves that movie. She also likes Hot Fuzz too, and that... End of the World film with the same actors, but yeah. Luckily she rarely asks to watch Shaun of the Dead. I mostly put it on if she's sick or down about something. It helps cheer her up.

Well, a lot of bands... Linkin Park, 3rd Door Down, Anberlin, Chevelle, Avenged Sevenfold, Five Finger Death Punch, Sonata Arctica, Pink, Katy Perry, Three Days Grace (old and new)... The list goes on and on, but I guess I'm just not a huge fan of whatever style Coldplay/Radiohead/Red Hot Chili Peppers/Shinedown are. I have to be in the mood for their mellow style. Often, I only like a handful of songs by a band.

My favorite is probably between Five Finger Death Punch and Sonata Arctica. I like more of their music than most bands. I've always been a fan of metal music more than anything, though I've been through rap and country phases.

Heh... Unless you're talking about marijuana and not cigarettes, people don't smoke for fun.

Marijuana I've tried once. It's really not my thing, but it makes everything funny. It also mellows people out, so it helps relax muscles and stuff. It's also safer than cigs.

In my experience, you want to talk to pot heads when they're sober because they're usually the smartest and most insightful people you'll meet. I have a theory that people with high IQ mostly smoke weed to stop their brains from going a mile (or kilometer) a minute.

As for cigarettes, people smoke them as stress relief. I'm pretty sure it's the breathing in and out that relieves stress, because you can do that and calm yourself without breathing in toxic chemicals.

Now, for that mask... High altitude means way up high, like on a mountain. I assume you know what 'endurance' means.

So it sounds like the mask helps mountain climbers climb Mt. Everest (and others) easier.

I'm not a fan of history either, but 90% of what we learn here is wrong anyway. Our history was written to make Americans look better than we are. For a class she took, mom had to get a book called Lies My Teacher Told Me (or something to that effect). I haven't read much of it, but one of my favorite quotes is "In 1492, Columbus sailed the ocean blue. In 1493, he stole all that he could see." Columbus is painted as this derpy guy we praise for finding America; when he wasn't even the first to find America. (see: Amerigo Vespucci)

The only times I enjoy history is when I'm told the truth, or interesting facts they don't include in the history books.

That's right. I forgot about that. My mom says I forget anything that doesn't interest me. She thinks it's weird that I don't ask people what they do for a living or anything. I've told her time and time again that that stuff doesn't matter, their personalities do, but she just doesn't get it.

Anyway, what I was going to say is that my brother, who's ancestry is part Jew, is very anti-Semitic. He says Jews ruin every country they go to, then just move on to the next. He's a bigger history buff than I am (obviously), so I'm sure he researched it.

He's also started reading the bibles of different religions.

My parents were convinced I was confused. The first few times I came out, my mom made me read parts of the bible talking about homosexuality being wrong (*cough cough* all in the Old Testament *cough cough*)

Mom doesn't like to be reminded of that now, because I think she's started understanding that some people are just gay. There's actual scientific documentation that shows a gay man's hippocampus is smaller, like a woman's, than a straight man's. She's gotten to the point where she gushes over how cute a gay couple is. Too much mushy stuff makes us both uncomfortable, regardless of the couple, but when there's a small kiss we're both like "they're so cute!!!"

I think she finally realized I wasn't confused when I finally dated a girl at age 22.

Sorry, but that writing is terrible... I definitely won't be reading that series now. I felt like I was reading fiction by a 12 year old.

I abhor Bluegrass music... I've only gone to a handful of mom's shows to show my support, but I can't stand the style. Dueling Banjos is cool, and I like the songs that sound peppy yet are about something macabre, but overall I don't like it.

Ahaha! Yeah, I want the panther (Sam) to have a route too, but he doesn't even have a sprite so I doubt he'll get one unless a lot of people ask. I was just mentioning their stretch goals, and Sam wasn't included in the list... Also I wonder if we're talking about the same character.. the one who takes your bags to your room, right?

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Rotun Noctis5 years ago (4 edits)

I hope I'll be able to answer earlier this time.

Don't worry about it. I was mocking you. 😇

Tusk. Well, it was an experience for sure. It's a 'good' movie... but I hate it. I don't want to imagine what THC would be like. I'm gonna stick to TWD - The Walking Dead instead. Passing the 2-episodes-in mark seems not so easy though. If Tusk was fsk 18... NO THANKS! Although it is a comical and disgusting movie rather than traumatizing.

Dunno if you know Constantine the series. Another show I'm watching at the moment and I like it so far. It's about an “exorcist“. The genres are drama, fantasy and horror.

A german lesbian, aswell as Corvius, I talked with on youtube and who are also horror fans, suggested me the movie Brimstone.

Pyrrha (+something) is open for a WhatsApp group chat. If it happens are you interested in joining? It's just an idea. :) I'm sure they would welcome you.

Meet Sam!

And I got reminded that the hooded dude from the beach is a dragon, not a rhino. Still looks like a rhino to me. What do you think?

There's this story too, I found on U- 18 Chan. Some claim it as the best comic book, but not me.

https://u18chan.com/gc/topic/1151824

You are telling me the book series is bad, cause the writing is? First of all you're wrong, second you are wrong.

5 star reviews basically ONLY and one 1 star review ONLY!

Whatever, think what you want to think! I mean sure the quotes are from the second book not this, but still.

(I love this book series!)

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Samtoinette5 years ago

Ohhh, Sam's so cuuute!!! I hope he gets a route at some point.

Yeah, I think the hooded dude looks like a rhino too. Maybe he doesn't if/when the hoodie comes off?

Wow, you took that personally.

I'm not gonna read it because *I* think it looks like it was written by a 12 year old. It's nothing against you. It doesn't make you stupid for liking it or anything. You like what you like and I like what I like and that's okay. We don't have to have all of the same interests to be friends.

Also, I just have to gush for a minute... First of all, my 'girlfriend' hasn't spoken to me in a month. I told her about a particularly macabre turn on for me and she even told me it freaked her out.

That said, I've told you before I'm demisexual and only feel sexual attraction to people who's personalities I like. Weeeeell, there's this really funny and outgoing guy in my class. For the first 8 weeks, he was sitting on the same side of class as me but on the opposite end of the row, next to this guy I guess he's been friends with for a while. I teased him about always sitting in the back, and the last two weeks he's taken the seat right next to me.

I don't want to read too much into it but I'm hoping that might mean he kinda likes me. He doesn't have a ring on his finger, but he could have a girlfriend or something.

Either way, it's great to have a fun person to sit next to and make weird comments with.

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