Apologies, I didn't check itch all day. I spent some quality time with my guinea pigs.
I'm actually gay too. Also in a Christian family, but my parents know. Ever since my first real girlfriend when I was 22. I came out to them multiple times, but they didn't believe me until I actually dated someone.
I used to feel ashamed about my identity, but that's because my parents tried to pray the gay away. I was a big disappointment at first.
However, I can understand being apprehensive about telling the family in those circumstances. But, you're only 19. Things will get better.
I don't care because I'm also autistic. Something about it makes me not care so much about how people see me.
I don't mind the yaoi appearance, but I've definitely come to prefer the bara appearance.