Don't apologize I thaught maybe I wrote too much and misjudged you, that's all. :)
Nothing wrong with guinea pigs. We had some too, they all died. All of our pets died through “paranormal circumstances“ ... This is another story for itself though^ Now we have a healthy dog (names Ultimo - Timo) who has a very bad behaviour and character. He is shy, but dominant and more...
You know your comment is actually very funny. We are more similar than you thaught (besides our gender). I am also autistic. I mean I have ADD or HDAS (or how it's called in English) and “a little bit autism“ too. You may be right that the “I don't care part“ comes from it.
I even was a victim of bullies at school back then (I left school after 11th grade after the start of the 12th grade simply because of dump people...) and after that an outsider, more or less, all the time. I had some pretty depressing days... :/
You know when having a disorder means you are different, than the rest, then I take it. I like being “not normal“, if that makes sence.
The only good thing about school was that it truly made me stronger and more confident. I was very shy, so I started building up muscles (I was more the skinny person), but not in the gym, because I hate it. First I trained at home, later with weights too, but then Calisthenics turned out to be the best idea, it feels more healthy and natural.
You are very lucky to have found a partner even if it wasn't for long and meant to be. I didn't have as much luck. I am happy for you that you came out, but I can't believe how they couldn't believe you. That's just... Idk what to say...
To have a crush on someone can be a problem, am I right ;/
I like this word apprehensive. Although I don't think it matches my feelings. It's like this: I don't think being gay is wrong and I know what is written in the bible (I didn't fully read it, but I heared stories at our “local community“ (google translator) which is like a church just more open), but if that means I have to change in that case I don't want to believe, like a Christian. Why because I still think there's something or god. (I heared so much about wonders and such that I believe in a way (not only because of that) If rescue (book epiphany, I believe) means not everyone can be saved I don't want that it's me who gets saved. Especially if it's non of the gay guys/girls. Doom me, idc!
Here another funny thing about me: My first name is even Christian, you pronounce it different though..
And yes the question after your identity is very important.
Well Bara or Yaoi? I honestly would say Yaoi is more feminine than Bara which characters are build with tons of muscles. I could be mistaken.
Btw. Have you watched the video about Adams coming out story? Something in his story is really messed up, inhumane.
I hope you have time reading through all this. I have time, apparently, until next month.
I have to apologize for my bad build sentences, but if I would think about them more it would take ages to write all of this text.