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I feel like it's mostly me rambling and oversharing x3 But I always feel like it's best to be honest. It's certainly been an interesting journey so far with plenty of ups and downs, haha. I actually listened to something recently that said anyone whose life is based around projects of any sort is doomed to a constant cycle of stress and disappointment if you focus too much on the end goal and forget to enjoy the process along the way. Because your mind is always focused on the future, completing the project, so you're striving for that, but the second you reach that point, it's in the past, already archived, and you're on to the next thing xD I never really thought about that before, haha. And it said if you're the sort of person that's gotten a bit stuck in that cycle of constantly working towards the end goal, to stop thinking about the end so much and focus more on the present process. And that's what I used to do! I just forgot that at some point x3 I think perhaps when I started participating in so many jams, haha. Because with the nature of jams and their deadlines, it's like you're constantly shifting the goalposts for yourself going from one jam to another.

I have very much enjoyed the process of working on jam projects though :3 Especially Spooktober VN Jam last year with it being the biggest team I've ever worked with. But I definitely suffer with that feeling of deflation once it's all over and done with. It's like a high while working on the jam, and then a really big low once it's finished and you achieved what you wanted to x3 I pretty much gave myself repeated burnout, haha. And then kept trying to work like that outside of jams too, which is just a recipe for disaster on a longer project like DD >.< So I've learned to calm down a bit now and take things at a somewhat more leisurely pace rather than trying to race to the finish x3

That does indeed sound like good advice! I always keep my vitamins by the kettle cos the first thing I do when I get up is make coffee, so I end up taking my vitamins while the kettle is boiling, haha. If I put them in a cupboard, I'd rarely remember to take them x3 And I always hang my exercise clothes up where I can see them to remind me I'm supposed to be exercising each day.

I have some stuff in mind for the project music-wise. I've currently got a folder on my PC with possible options from a selection of various assets I've been able to purchase on sale over the years. I've wound up with quite a big collection of music, as well as slowly teaching myself how to make tracks out of loop and sample assets I've acquired. I'll definitely check out Spaghetti's stuff at some point though cos I'm always looking for more music :3 Matching BGM tracks to scenes is one of my favourite parts of the process!

It is tempting to look more into the audio side of things myself just because anything related to music, sound effects, and voice acting tends to end up being what I enjoy doing the most on my projects :3 But I feel like if I did that, I'd be left with no time to actually finish the projects I have on the go >.< It's something to think about though when I've tied up all my loose ends!

I actually prefer working as part of a team rather than solo. Or at least that's how I feel when comparing my experience of working on solo projects VS working on a couple of jam projects as part of a team. Making Limbo Line with the Spooktober time I was part of was hands down the most fun I've had working on a project :3 And that was largely due to getting to work with such a wonderful team of people. And I feel both the projects I worked on as part of a team for jams (Apartment No 9 and Limbo Line) both turned out better than anything I've made on my own as well. If I had more money, I'd try to get a small team together, but I don't x3 So outside of jams where you don't have to worry about money and payment, I don't really know how you go about forming a team >.< And I've heard so many horror stories about small teams where they end up arguing about different things (usually money-related) and then end up falling apart, leaving projects unfinished. So yeah, I'd love to be part of a permanent team. It just seems something that's quite difficult to find cos after jams, folks often seem to go their own way cos they've got their own projects and stuff to return to. Maybe someday though x3