Honestly, that's equally good as Shirokoi's Repeat! Man i really want to continue the story! Why this is hurt so much when something about to end?!

Also i have a fear. It maybe contain spoilers. I dont want Ben to be suicidal. I really enjoy his skin while i'm reading! I just really want it the best way! I want a good ending, so please! I don't want to cry more and more. I don't want to suffer. Somehow i'm fit with the protagonist, so don't kill me creators!