its so easy to disreguard your better judgement in the wake of everyone wanting to kill you. its hard to think straight when your vigalence is in overdrive. its hard to be responsible when you self medicate to get thru the smallest most fragile moments and when the drug s that u use to calm you down is also the one you use to forget for a moment...and to party, and to feel sensation just a little bit more.

being a plural system ourselves, this Vn spoke our language. its scary to think how'd we'd handle such scary scenrio. its scary to live in such a state, not knowing if ur trans siblings will get it. a closet in a closet in a closet. keeping hidden to make things less complicated. the fear of implication, the curse of forever being associated with those who , for others, will represent you for your entire life. trying to make a seperation so others understand where one of you begins and the other ends. hoping they understand (highlight of this VN  was how eaisly Ellie accepted the plural coming out..like instantly. makes us think of the times we overthought  and over thought only to be respected...of course there is always a bad route you had to be prepared for, but my hope flashed like the sun. )

and of course the internal strife. headmates acting to fullfill different sometime conflicting needs. hating that feeling of being powerless when they front. or feeling it would be inconvient to headswitch bc to the outside it'll look like ur "crazy" or at least thats the fear.

the toxic yuri was inside us the whole time...and outside it seems. the bllod running down our hands begs us to look in the mirror, but who wants to do that?

((also hate how self defense is always so hard to prove prove for minorities in the hellscape we are in.))

i like that there were apologies, that there is a glimmer of hope even tho in all likelyhood its not gonna end well..... we're scared for their future.  just like we're scared for ours. and yours and our whole community. i hope we get to the other side of this...existential terror

thank you for making this

-Alice,Aka Mocabyte