tapping feverishly, the signal loads

"i played this game from the jam. it was really affecting."

"you say that about every game you play for that jam"

"well its true. and this one too. i wanna play it with you?"

"what?"

we ussualy just watch anime, hope this isn't weird

"I wanna play it with you. i wanna hear what you think. wanna know if you relate to it"

holds breath

"sure. it must really pander to your fetiishes huh?"

sighs, tries not to be insulted

"well yes and no? it feels weird to say that. in context it feels like a confession or something. its an interesting dynamic but its not like hot or really even funny. well i guess its hot cause its about how fucking hot it is outside. vey topical"

"oh more down to earth huh. what makes you wanna read it with me?"

"it makes me think i dont wanna treat anyone like that. so insecure about the shape of a relationship being wrong or seeming wrong to others that i keep them at arms length. and you never get close even though you want to....also its age gap. problematic kind "

isnt she lovely?

"oh. that makes sense."

breath release.

"a lot of the games from the jam have had problematic age gap, but a few. summer sound...and the first one i played, uhh today's sky...they sit in my stomach weird. like its a real thing im not supposed to be looking at...and that its barely obfuscated by the art. it feels weird to do anything besides congradulate it somberly?"

"do you feel guilty enjoying things that are semi autobiograpical?"

what can't u be more stupid?

"i mean, kinda? but all art has little pieces of ourselves in it, so i mean...a lot of stories are pulled striaght from memory and twisted a little. but sometimes its just like the sun in your eyes and you dont wanna look directly at it.theres not a lot of uhh...abstarction"

"i guess so. but you also like dark stuff that reflects what you've been thru right?"

"right. "

"......"

why did even ask...oh right

"also its a poem"

"what is?"

"the game i wanna show you...its a a long poem.... did i ever tell you about how we used to do slam?"