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That makes me even more excited to see what happens with Alouette!! I definitely need to take some time off after the yan jams to play your demo. I absolutely adore those sorts of psychological aspects in things :3 That’s so adorable though to wear a divers helmet as a mask x3 But yeah, I guess you’re right that not many people ever know themselves. It’s kind of hard to have the opportunity to even find yourself when you’re sorta pushed into society so young and told you’ve gotta do and be X, Y, and Z >.< It’s like you don’t even get a chance to breathe cos you’ve got your orders and you just have to get on with that, haha. 

I was recently given a resource on connecting with yourself better by the ASD group, and it’s like an exercise that you’re supposed to fill out once a week for a few weeks without giving it too much thought. It’s split into like different categories and you’re supposed to define yourself and your interests to different groups. So like, think of your family, then list the things that are important to you in order of how important they are when you’re appearing to them. Do the same with friends. Again with strangers. And then finally when thinking about there being no one there at all to judge you, just listing what you consider most important about yourself and what you do/would like to do with no one watching.

Supposedly, by the time you’ve filled it out a few times, you should have a better idea of what your core self actually values the most and what you put more value on for the sake of appearances/impressing others.

Haha, that would not surprise me at all if the UK is worse than the US for understanding mental health x3 Mental health in general is severely underfunded here. We have the NHS, but it’s a bit of a postcode lottery as to whether or not you can access different kinds of health services, and even if you can, the waiting lists are years along cos the demand far outstrips its capacity to serve >.<

I managed to finish the video in the end and after laughing at more of your references (Frozen - Let it go xD made me laugh out loud in bed, haha), I was also so touched by your message at the end. That was such a heartfelt speech and it made me want to give you the hugest of hugs x3 I could never do something like that off of the top of my head because I’d fumble all my words and it would just come out wrong >.< But yeah, it was just so open, honest, and heartwarming to hear, not to mention brave to speak about that sort of stuff!

And then when you signed off saying get some sleep, get some proper sleep, I couldn’t help but laugh again cos it was around 4am when I finished watching so it just felt like I was being chided by a mother or something x3 But yeah, I have many fuzzies from all your kind words and wisdom! And like I said, you’re just such a bright light shining with warmth and positivity :3 If I had more time, I would watch every single one of your videos cos they’re so cozy and comforting x3

I didn’t know Your Game did a video too :o Even though I’m subscribed to them on YouTube >.< I swear my YouTube dashboard is useless, haha. It does sometimes show me your new videos & videos from others I’m subbed to, but mainly it’s just plastered with irrelevant recommendations >.>

That does suck that it’s difficult to even attempt to pursue a diagnosis. I’ve heard that a lot of people out there now just kinda take it as a given if they look into a lot of stuff on ASD and feel like it fits because it’s too awkward to actually get diagnosed. I guess at least it didn’t cost money over here, but yeah, it was a loooong time >.< I totally agree though that the best thing is to just be :3

That’s what’s been so nice about the support sessions I’ve been going to because they understand us and the room just feels like a completely safe space to actually be yourself without judgement! They keep telling us to try and do our best to drop the masks and such and just be ourselves, whatever that entails. Which is easier said than done, haha. But it does feel like they’ve created an environment at least where it does feel okay to just be. If everywhere were like that, life would be so much easier! As some of the charities over here say, mental health stuff and things like ASD aren’t always necessarily disabilities, it’s society that does the disabling.

But yeah, all we can do is keep going :3 And as you say, just try to do our best and do the things that make us happy in the process ^-^