OK I HAVE PLAYED IT TWICE DLKAJLFDSKJA.
Though I admittedly became more and more morose each time GOD???? Maybe not the best choice. Now I can feel all the residual emotions and angsty feels weighing heavily on my heart lkdjfads 💦 (I say despite clearly being a sucker for emotional pain LOL)
I found myself a bit conflicted -- because on the one hand, while not being able to quite put myself in Alex's shoes (FOR OBVIOUS REASONS LOLOL) I can still at least relate to wanting more from someone else than what they're able to or willing to give. And that made my heart ache for him a lot. But I got a weird conflicted vibe from Adam. I disliked him for Alex's sake and what he was doing to Adam and how horrible he would make Alex feel because of the situation, but the feeling I got from him was that he truly doesn't even realize that what he's doing is hurting Alex so much. And to me it felt very much like the case of someone incredibly immature who thought everything was perfectly all right and everyone was happy with the situation when clearly that's not the case. Also it seemed very much to me that Adam is quite naiive in the matters of like, love and sex and romance. And that Adam himself isn't even quite sure of his own thoughts and feelings on the matter, for instance, some of what he said about the difference between friends and partners, etc. AND SO LIKE??? I SOMEHOW ALSO FELT BAD FOR HIM, TOO. Even though he's being quite selfish and unthinking, it doesn't feel like he's doing it really on purpose lakdjfas (and so my gut is that at some point in the future............. maybe not with this specific situation, but something's definitely going to come back and bite him in the butt and send things spiraling for him LOL)
LIKE IN MY MIND I WAS LIKE. ALEX YOU SHOULD HAVE SAID SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS. BECAUSE IT SEEMS ADAM DOESN'T EVEN KNOW. BECAUSE YOU'RE BOTH SEEING THIS RELATIONSHIP FROM A VERY DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE. But I also realize this is incredibly difficult LMAO So it just feels like this really miserable unavoidable situation between two people that can't seem to escape from each other yet with both cause trouble with each other (like right now, in Alex's case, where he just feels awful and used but can't stop it, and possibly in the future in Adam's case).
There's just so much at play here LAKDSJFADS SO THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR CREATING SUCH A CONVOLUTED COMPLEX EMOTIONAL SITUATION IN SUCH A SHORT GAME BECAUSE IT'S DOING THINGS TO MY HEAD AND HEART AND INSIDES GODDDDD 😭
It was extremely well done. All of it. Admittedly I can't really say much about the [REDACTED] bits EVEN THO I DID PLAY IT I GOT A BIT SHY AND PLAYED IT A BIT QUICKLY 💦 But I really enjoyed how you set up the composition of the scene with Adam and the little side images of Alex so we could see his emotions, too. The song was also a great choice. It continued to inject convoluted melancholy straight into my ears even after I finished the game and went back to the menu ldkjasd
I'm finding it quite fascinating now comparing this to Katekyo's First Date. Not only in the completely different ways they approach intimate matters, but also even from how they're set up from a narrative perspective. With Katekyo, we're placed straight in his head. Given access to his thoughts. While with Adam's game, we're put in the head of a different person, and so we're only given a glimpse of Adam from the outside, leaving the real Adam a bit more of a mystery. We only know about him what he says out loud and what we know about the situation, but we're not given access to his head and thoughts like we were with Katekyo. This is very interesting to me and I don't know what it means...
A part of me still wants to slap Adam upside the head a bit though and grow up and think about others a bit more LOL
Hmm. AT ANY RATE. I quite enjoyed this, just as I thoroughly enjoy all of your games. I liked how while it did give us this little glimpse of Adam, it ended up instilling so many more questions in the meantime, which has just made me even more curious about everything that's going on here outside of the little snapshots we've been given so far. WHICH IS ALL JUST MAKING ME THAT MUCH MORE EAGER FOR WHEN WE'LL GET MORE OF THE LARGER NAMIDA STORY???? And ofc I am still in awe of how you can keep putting out these complete little games with all these different stories and characters and vibes lakdfasd
Thank you for attacking my heart once more 🤣😭💦