Sad to see you going through difficult times as that, life is usually harsh sadly.
My advice would be follow what your mind tells you, mistakes can happen for sure but following someone else words usually ends up in opposite way of what you wanted deep within yourself, especially for relationship whether is is friend-like relation or love relationship.
Other having more experience in love matters does not mean that they are right either, they are themselves and you are yourself, we all see things in different ways even if they can be similar, not everyone has the same mindset either, lot people just follow the way others tell them to be while others goes against.
If you do not feel ready or do not feel the need for a love relationship then you are not forced either into it.
Just live the way you want to, I hope you will feel better soon.
As for games they can wait that you feel better.