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But that is the problem. 

Cannot do anything? 

WE CAN we HAVE BEEN able to since Android was Sky-Net incarnate. 

Listen... let me tell you a story. A honest real life story. I was diagnosed in the 70s, as child, with 'Acute Hyperactivity' by paediatricians at a children's hospital my parents Dr referred me to, because of certain symptoms... (they now think I have an ASD, as an adult, and want me to test, but I wont, because if I don't test, I cannot have it :P )....  and got in all kinds of crap. 

I was constantly at once, wining awards for what we call STEM subjects today, from my very very earliest schooling.... but ALSO... being constantly in trouble for swearing, arguing with teachers, being disruptive...  they would not get away with these things today... but I was caned... with a feather duster, but still, I was locked in a utility closet until the end of class by a teacher, another teach THREW ME OUT A WINDOW...tbf it was open... one teacher even got cagey enough to work out she could not do those things, physically, being a pretty petite lady.. so would stop class, threaten me with isolation room lockdown or scab duty, unless I came before the class and apologized to her... then KISSED her, it was only a peck but still can you imagine that today? 

What do you think that did for my social life at school? Do you think that made me a hero? Or perhaps more, a strange, mad genius outcast, constantly targeted by Bullies, who got little sympathy from the teachers (likely because half of them felt a degree of kinship to the bullies because they wanted to give me a hiding too... in fact, one teacher did)?

It was, shock of shocks, the latter. I know I know, you knew that, sure, but who does not love a dramatic reveal. 

So I got in a lot of fights. But you know what? I WON THEM. I had to. A Boy Named Sue type of deal. And, in wining the majority, some people noticed something. I never became a bully myself. EVER. I never started it. I was always provoked. 

One of the proudest moments of my life I still look back on now, almost 50 years later, was when two younger girls in 2nd grade, came running to ME out of all people, some little 3rd grade, out of breath, telling me they'd been looking for me all lunch break.. because another kid in their year was being bullied. Out of everyone they knew, and I did not know these girls well, all the staff too, they thought *I* was the person most likely able to do something about a 6 year old being bullied. 

Sometimes I could not. This went on for years. Followed me to high school. But I fought when I could, took my lickings when I could not, when threatened with being burned with a lighter by the bully clique of the seniors, I learnt to just move first, hold my hand over the flame myself, until the smell made them blanch, my eyes locked on theirs... then THEY pulled my hand away as they tossed the now hot lighter, told me I needed see the nurse, and called me insane. When they cornered me on the second storey walk way, and surrounded me, threatening to throw me off, I laughed, and JUMPED myself. Soon.. I was too crazy to bully even in groups, and they all knew if it was just two or three of them, I would kick their heads in. 

Finally one group of bullies, cornered me on the bus... and blocked my exit at my stop, because they lied to an even bigger, older, bully, who almost kicked out of school, done time in juvi, and was drug addict, about something they claimed I said, and he was waiting for a chance to stomp my head. In that scenario, I warned the bullies trying to stop me to move... and when the did not... I STABBED THEM.  Dont worry, it only grazing limb wounds, but they sure as hell fell down in teary agony... they were only young teens after all.. but F'em

My point is THERE IS ALWAYS A CHOICE, and you CAN ALWAYS FIGHT.  ALWAYS. I might have been killed. I might have been the one stabbed, or defenestrated for that matter... I could have gotten expelled, or even charged with crimes... but so effing what? YOU CAN ALWAYS ALWAYS fight. 

You ever watch that show Breaking Bad? The Hiesenberg guy walks in to that crazy ice heads office with a bag of crystals that look like shards... but are not? They go BOOM? I am not sure if I can say what those are. But I know. In fact, he is lucky, the show made them seem a bit more stable than they are... they could have gone off on the ride over there, he just had them on the seat iirc. But I know that they are, and have a recipe on how to make them. They're great DIY initiator. I am not Military. I am not some SOE type Spook. I am not a Chemist. I am not a explosive Technician. I am a bum in the outback, who barely finished high school. 

So how do I know? Because when I was in my late teens, I read (and still have copies of stored away somewhere), the Terrorist Handbook and the Anarchist Cookbook. Not because I am either of those things, but because maybe, one day, highly unlikely considering I live what the CIA regularly rates as THE most STABLE country on earth, but.. maybe.. I might need to do something. I might need to act. Something wrong might be happening, and The Man might be behind, and not fighting it. So maybe I will have to fight it, and help others fight it. 

YOU CAN ALWAYS FIGHT IT. 

I do not come to care about the girls. I come to resent them. Lin is trying, but she is stupid. Android just steals nudes these days apparently, Autumn is in a position of power, where she can play her cards close to her chest, infiltrate the most powerful halls, and bring them down with exposing their corruption, but is just too effing retarded to work that out, Kali could change the world with her connection to her father, she could make herself the heir again, and then have money and power, and thus influence beyond measure and Nia is just effing WEAK... she could have just KILLED Jia, or SHE could have killed the Actor guy. In fact with faeries... one's who are willing to kill, on side... there are a LOT of people who could be killed. The Twins father and sister. The Minister for Elves. The corrupted Elf Queen. The Organ Harvesting head of the church, and whole lot of Saints, they could all be killed by tiny magical, invisible assassins, when there is NO way anyone could ever suspect or accuse anyone in the Hotel, who could all just go to bowling alley all day, and pose for the cameras. 

But no. 

We aint doing this. None of it. When Jia wanted us to kill her husband, I wanted a SURE option. Did not get one. I am seeing them grow, sure, in to disappointments. 

Now one could argue to be realistic, they're awakening and changing views would have to be slow, given that they have been conditioned since birth to think a certain way, at least in regards to Kali, and Autumn. Too bad. If they are going to be this blind, *I* would KICK THEM OUT. I do not want them then. Bye bye. Same with Ashley, though she at least seem to get it. If Android is too stupid to know she could shut down all the society, derail trains, crash planes, cause massive traffic accidents, disable hospitals and basically kill 90% of the Humans in a week, before they can even react, I want to turn her off. If Lin and Nia turn out not to have the balls to do what needs be done, kill who needs be killed, I want to sell them, F'em, bye bye. Why do I need them, I have Sia and Ann, for Elf love. It does not make me fall for them. It makes me HATE THEM. 

Anyway, I will give this game a chance, see what it finally becomes, but TBH, the deeper I go in to this thing, the more I hate everyone, and hate the story, that is just me. But if you are someone who stabbed your bullies, this sh*t doesnt fly. Act, and die, or win. Enough of this being a bystander watching these stupid morons F up everything, is the position I am moving towards. 

Anyway, aint my game. I will just quit for now, come back in a year and see if it is resolved by the time the game is done.