Oh no, you misunderstand. I love to challenge myself. I do it all the time. The problem arises when the game assumes I'll want to challenge myself in the way the developer artificially decides. I set up my own challenge runs in nude byte all the time. It's the only thing keeping it spicy since there's been no new weapon types or different modes (OR NEW CLASSES!) in forever, and the only things left for me to actually do are get all the cosmetics and then be perpetually seething over the incomplete gallery.
I hate because I know better but don't have the ability to fix it myself, generating extreme frustration. The process of improvement requires tempering, which always starts with fire and flames. It's just that people don't like to remember that talking to people is an option—usually the best one—and instead just knee-jerk shoot them in the head metaphorically speaking before even considering that they might have something worthwhile to say... Anyways. Yeah, skill issue all around. Wish I could do half the shit you do. I won't ever be able to reach that point because I am not genetically predisposed, nor did I have the environment growing up to foster the skill. The only thing I do well is think, very, very hard, and write goodly yesyes.
Trust me, I have tried, I in fact do try to learn how to both draw and code all the time, I just literally cannot. 13+ years of trying to learn, still stuck at the stickman stage and flatlining everytime I see an equation that calls for directories.