look, i usually manage to think of a quirky and funny comment to put in here but today i think i'm just gonna be honest (just for today, i'm feeling like it)

bro here is really relatable. i'm serious. i have never been into a situation like his but i know these feelings. i know them all too well and seeing them on screen, hearing them was an insane experience. it was like hearing myself, an echo of who i was in the past.

and gonna tell you that, i used to hate love just like him.

after i played i dug over some old poems of mine, things from 2017, 2018, end of highschool, one of the worst moments of my life. and i found one particularly interesting and related to the whole hippolytus thing. 

the name is "amor não é só Eros" ("love isn't only Eros") and there's a paragraph that goes like this:

"The heart is selfish,

Infamous, liar, exaggerated.

The mind can be the seed of madness,

But the heart is the seed of destruction."

(if this isnt hippo-coded i dont know what is lmao,,,,,)

maybe it's because i'm also aroace, and for a long while i also thought of myself as someone with the heart "purer than daylight" or whatever. i was proud of myself just like him, and whenever i felt anything of affection towards others i would get mad at me. just as i got mad at anyone who would fall in love, or talk about love, or anything like it.

"If love is what they tell so much,

I would have already admitted myself [to an asylum]:

I almost never feel that way.

I don't walk around desperate, lonely in this life

I appreciate the solitude of my own company."

so yeah lol. i'm embarassed to say this but yeah. blonde crying greek boy is literally me.

i'm glad you got the whole aroace experience right. it's a thing that i'm still learning to put into words and this was very refreshing. a bit cathartic even. i'll hold this hippolytus dear to my heart (even if he hates it).

"Love isn't only Eros,
Not only a smile by the wind
Not only a drunk whisper
Not a constant pain, an earthly longing"