I found this in the "autobiographical" tag search while looking for inspiration for one of my own projects, and didn't really look at the content warnings, so I wasn't expecting to be thrown into something so similar to what I experienced with my own anorexia when I was a student (also around 2018). I consider myself very recovered at this point, but I'm trying to build some muscle after gaining a bunch of weight while bedridden from an ankle injury, and it is so hard to separate exercising from calorie burning, just like you say. I'm trying my best. TL;DR, the writing in this was lovely and really atmospheric, wonderful work.
Also, I thought I recognised your handle, and I think it's because we used to be Twitter mutuals! Small internet! I hope you've been well.


