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Trust me, I've always thought about it. Politicians and bureaucrats don't ever take into consideration how the 'below average' are. Hell, I'm pretty sure the cost of dinner for one night in their house could feed a number of families for  a week. But that's how politics is, the super rich and powerful distribute wealth among themselves while the ones below gets the trickles. And that has a number of times played in my head which made me not want to work for a long time. I'd be busting my brain and body for hours just to earn minimum wage while my boss can look at an item 5x my monthly salary and say it's too cheap for their taste (real story).

Society isn't concerned with mental health issues until it becomes something they have to deal with and in every single case where they've been forced to, they just lock up the person in a prison or asylum. The thing is, no one wants a mess but they won't do anything to prevent it. Every year you hear a crazy number of people die because of suicide, mental illness related homicides and other things of the sort, next to no one tries to prevent it because how our world works is that 'it's a problem but not my problem' which is really bad. We always get reports that, let's narrow it down to teens since they are the biggest demographic, commit suicide because of the stress put on them to put their all in school and follow a mindless accord set by society that the only way to live is to be a workhorse for others. If you're an office worker, day after day you do the same thing, prices are always going up yet pay is stagnating if not declining.

I got a pretty decent job once but I soon found out, there is no such thing for a working person. Apparently, I was being paid more than others because I was a System Administrator but when I looked at what the cost was for my very bad way of living, I started to question what a decent job was. My rent alone was more than half my pay (not including bills yet and taxes). I couldn't even afford food. I had lived away from my mother for a while at the time but that was my first real time living alone since I was way far from any one I knew. I remember crying as a 20 year old male some nights, the only thing I had to eat was rice which I had to make in a kettle because I didn't have a stove or anything for that matter. I've lost track of the number of times I've thought about killing myself and the only thing that kept me going was the thought that my mother was prone to depression and I had a baby sister and no matter how dire things became, I'd try to live so maybe one day I can do something for them or at the very least, they die before I do.

I've been very cynical all my life but when all you see are people being modern slaves and the elites just ignoring it up until they can't, it really doesn't help. But that's human nature, I suppose. You'll never even begin to think of drowning until it's your head that goes under water.

Now I'm no psychologist or psychiatrist, but I've been through my own phase of declining mental health. At some points, I would tie a shirt or sweater around my neck and pull on it until I passed out among some other things I'm not particularly proud of. Ended up in an asylum for around 2 years and it wasn't the tons of pills and high medical bills that got me to come around. Up until that point, I pushed people away from me, I utterly despised people and at times I felt like getting violent. But there were a few things that helped me get a bit better, the same methods don't act as a 'one-size-fits-all' but everyone here supports you along with myself. If you ever need someone to talk to, give me a shout if you don't feel weirded out by here. I'll share some ways you can talk to me and I'm sure others will come out with their own. I don't like pity or extending it, so don't think that's what we're doing, we just love your person because we've come to resonate with you through your work.

Yup, everyone works better in an environment and team where they feel comfortable. Overworking employees is a problem I wish to solve but when put that way, there are mountains of problems I wish to correct but may never do. It's quite the brazen reality check and it just makes the individual seem so insignificant in the grand scheme of things.

I never really liked big companies solely on the basis most, if not all, of them treat their employees like serfs. I don't really plan on joining any of those, small teams work best for me of not solo.

I get what you mean. It's why I rather games from indie teams and solo devs. You actually get to see the work and passion put into the games compared to the big companies who just throw anything in and try to make it a cash grab. I dunno, visuals just work better for me and it's ironic I grew up reading novels which don't have pictures.

I can do a thing or two when drawing female anime style characters, not too good with the guys, but it's nowhere up to scratch to draw the entirety of the poses and expressions needed for my own VN. Plus, I struggle when duplicating a drawing. Not sure why but I might draw something and it looks awesome and that's it, I can't recreate it.

Maybe being on a team would give me some motivation to continue but I doubt that's a guarantee. I'll just see if I can get someone to do all the models I need for a low cost. Voice acting is something way out of my mind right now but I at least have the story and what I want to convey in mind. On top of that, I'm planning to include a bunch of ways the story could end up. Sounds like a disaster waiting to happen but hey, I love torturing myself.

I'd say I'm somewhat competent with coding instead of knowing how to. It's more of a repetition thing if you know what lines to use to achieve what outcome. Yeah, I like writing stories and I've lost motivation for the same amount of them simply because I think they'd be a ton better with visuals. The ideas are still there, just not taking front and centre at the moment. Giraffe Academy on YT has some really neat beginner courses on different langauages which should be able to help if you're interested.

Being a solo dev has a lot of drawbacks but the payoff is worth it in the early days. I've never really been on a team myself and about all of my work have been for my self gratitude or fantasy. It's fine though, I like to think the more you struggle, the better it's going to feel when you see how it blossoms

No problem, mate. I find myself rambling when I talk about something I like the same. Don't worry, Renpy isn't the make-all of visual novels. You use what you're comfortable with. I usually only code in C# in Unity but I like the simplicity of Python.

Moreover, other than just making a label and say "do this", Renpy is kinda my life when it comes to making and modding visual novels. It's good but there are multiple engines just as good or even better so never think you have yo be limited.

Been musing about making my own VN but I think Ren'py would be a lot easier to use than Unity since you basically just drop everything into the corresponding folder. Not sure how that would change the visuals but I've seen incredible looking VN's made in Ren'py. Also, love Castoria's route so far but take as much time as you need on developing. Costs for drawing different poses and expressions along with the voice acting must cost an arm and a leg 

(no pun intended)