Fuck. Just... fuck.
My mom, we, uh... never had that good of a relationship, but she tried. Bipolar, type two. Severe crisis. Dad left. Told his boss i was dead, and moved back to his home town. Came back when i was 16 last year, and mom is kind of stable. Fucked right off again after seeing i had grew up troubled with drugs and was bi, didn't call for months, i block him, immediate call from him. Ignored him for some months, called him to talk to my brother (who i had met for the first time last year, although i knew he existed since i was about 3) and to wish my brother a happy birthday. I'm 17, and 2 days ago, i found out dad did lie. He did beat my mom. He did lock her at home. He beat up bro's mom, too. Bro. Hell, i'm sure he would've beat me, had he the chance. My 15yo brother and his mom told me everything about my dad.
I have 2 brothers, one 15, still in 5th grade (and in Brazil, it's not easy to have good education; even after he tried every private school in his town, they still couldn't manage his anger problems), and other 6. A sister, too. Cutest thing, although the only one that is my father's son is the 15yo. I still consider them brothers. I'm ranting and venting, i guess, this game made me need it. This game made me think about my mom. It's been a month since we've last talked, and we live in the same house. Grandpa suspects i still do hard drugs (i'm doing everything to show him i'm past that for months), grandma has a temper.
I now have to take my dad's place and raise my family right. I came to this a few days ago, and now am reading psychology books to try and help my bro with his anger, i'm looking for work to get him a therapist etc.
This game made me so emotional, so, so emotional. I'm at school crying like a pussy with my friends beside me, understanding jackshit. Maybe one or two get it. I don't know. I look at sis everytime i block my phone, and think about them all the time.
But what about my parents? I told dad to fuck right off and we're not gonna talk anymore. He told me explicitely he doesn't care about my brother, and that he's a piece of shit. When i insulted his new wife, he called me a 16yo piece of shit. Again, i am 17. I'm not gonna grow up to see dad like this. Mom is possibly going to be... distant and cold, too. Like that. Or like Dad in this game. What am i going to become?
Your game is so good, it made me create an acount to ramble about my shitty fucking little life on a website barely anyone cares about. I'm crying about mom. About dad. I have no father but grandpa, and he's 62. Mom got pregnant at 16. What will i do when he gets old? What if grandma is the one to become forgetful? She has some memory problems, but mostly pressure problems, physical pains, she's already suffering, and that makes me feel so fucking bad. Grandpa doesn't live with me, mum and grandma, but he comes over everyday. What if one day, he just... doesn't? What if he doesn't remember if he's proud of me? Will he remember he bought me my first bass? Will grandma remember she bought my first guitar? Will mom remember showing me her favorite songs and taking me to the movies, even with all the delusions she had? Will she remember the times she tried to kill me? DOES SHE? Will grandpa be proud? Will he? Will grandma be proud?
And now, i'm reading again, just for the sake of encouraging my brother to do the same. I'm gonna show him cool books, RPG books, good tales, stuff like that. Help him study. And i'm trying so hard to learn to help him.
Will he be proud?
Dad said he is.
The only person i KNOW is proud of who i've become is the person i despise the most.
Thank you, stranger. Your game is indescribably meaningful and just.. infinitely beautiful. Lindo. Uma obra de arte. Mesmerizante, mesmerizing.
Have a nice life.
And if you want to listen to a good song of them, try Deep, deep, by Have a nice life. Sorry for venting, i needed it. I needed this game.