Happy new year to you too! To be honest, I’m still really struggling to stay on top of any kind of replies to things outside of itch, even emails >.< so I hope you don’t take it personally or anything like that because it’s not the case in the slightest.
In the runup to Christmas, I was pretty much heading for either meltdown or shutdown and then our annual pre-Christmas family gathering was the event that tipped me over the edge. Shutting down was the way it ended up going! I spent almost all of January without even turning on my PC because I just couldn’t face it.
In fact, I wasn’t able to do much of anything >.< I slept waaaay more than usual and stopped exercising completely too. It seemed I was only capable of reading a few books, eating, and sleeping. I pretty much blocked out anything online/virtual. I couldn’t even muster the energy to play games that I had hoped to play during the Christmas holidays.
I’m only just about keeping up with itch even though there isn’t even THAT much to respond to, but when it comes to emails and Discord, I’m waaaay behind :( And that’s not anything to do with contact regarding my games, it’s literally just me struggling to keep in touch with friends as usual >.< I have a couple of friends whose emails I still haven’t managed to reply to from all the way back in August last year because they’re quite long ones T_T
It’s so frustrating because I desperately want to keep in touch with everyone and not end up losing friends by being so slow to reply, but my capacity for socialising is so low that it’s virtually impossible :(
I also found out last week from the post-ASD diagnosis support group that I’m now attending, that apparently, it’s also highly likely I have ADHD as well as ASD x3 Which I guess would go some way towards explaining why I’m so eager to reach out and make lots of friendships and connections but then massively struggle to maintain them due to being easily overwhelmed >.<
If true, it would also provide an answer as to why I have extreme focus, enough to finish projects, but also need to have multiple things on the go to swap between so as not to get bored, haha.
Aaaand it would also explain how come doctors tried to pin a bipolar diagnosis on me a couple of years ago too! These ASD specialists reckon bipolar is incorrect, that it's ASD + ADHD. So yeah, I’ve been encouraged to now seek an ADHD diagnosis, but since it took over 5 years to get my ASD diagnosis, I don’t know if it’s worth the time and stress to pursue it!
I wasn’t really counting, but I think it took me around 3 months to actually get these long posts made, the 2 here for DD, and the 1 on Ko-Fi >.< I wasn’t working on them every day, but I had to keep taking so many breaks in between typing paragraphs that, yeah, I reckon from starting them to posting them it’s taken around 3 months. It’s kind of a perfect example of why I can’t manage social media or keep on top of posting updates and stuff :(
So yeah, I’m only just about keeping my head above water as usual I guess x3 The support group I went to used this image in one of their slides, and it’s so accurate to my everyday life that it’s hilarious xD
Thank you again for everything! And I hope that you’re able to have a brilliant 2024 yourself :3
