Sorry it's taken me forever to reply >.< I kinda just stopped all communication for most of December because I got too overwhelmed by life in general and couldn't really cope with anything :( So now I'm really badly behind on my replies and stuff >.<
My arm is pretty much fine now :3 It did heal okay in the end! It's still kinda weak, but no weaker than it was before the accident, haha. I did physio and stuff to build some muscle back, but I've always had weak arms xD That's awful that you got bitten twice though by your cousin's dog o.O I imagine that must've been incredibly painful!! I'm glad you healed okay at least, but man, still, that's a horrible thing to go through :( I hope you didn't end up with like nerve damage or anything!
Hehe, well, I imagine orange Blythe would be very happy about that x3 They ended up becoming my favourite too somehow, even though they're not even my type xD Just kinda wormed their way into my heart, haha.
I'm sorry your social anxiety is so bad :( People that have never had it just don't understand how debilitating it can be! Like my mum always used to say to me when I was younger, just get a job, that will fix it... and it's like, uhm, mum, that's not how it works >.< For starters, getting a job is like climbing a mountain when you have mental health problems, but then actually keeping a job if you get one is almost impossible! So much of many jobs requires you to have good social/people skills, so if you find speaking to people terrifying and stressful, how do survive in a job that requires you to do it constantly?!?! :(
For me, I find that going out in nature can help with my depression, but yeah, sometimes my social anxiety stops me from actually going out, haha. I generally don't leave the house without someone with me cos I often get too anxious/overwhelmed. If it wasn't for my dad, I'd probably just shut myself inside and never leave the house.
I do think it helps if you can manage to get out and do scary things and really push yourself out of your comfort zone, but actually forcing yourself to do that is extremely difficult >.< And even then, it's like sure, things might be a tiny bit less terrifying the next time, but they're still terrifying x3 It's so much easier to not have to constantly put your mind and your body through extreme stress.
I've been working on a project for Winter VN Jam that I hoped to release before Christmas but have failed to because too much stress and stuff has been happening and I haven't had as much time as I would've like to work on it >.< I'm aiming to try and release next Friday instead, but it's probably going to be missing some VA because the poor VA got ill before he could finish recording the script x3 I will just update in January to add it or something! I wonder if it will work on Winlator or not though. It's not a huuuuuge game. Only around 10k words. But there are a lot of assets in it because I tried to make my own CGs and I've edited a lot of sprites and backgrounds, haha. The current project size in Unity is 8GB, but that'll go down when it's exported + I haven't optimised any files yet!
Yeeeeah, 20 mins is too long to wait for loading, haha. The choices in Dawn of the Damned don't actually matter that much anyways x3 They impact what's happening throughout the game, but the endings are either determined from the very beginning depending on one thing, or from the timed choices right at the end.
I think the file size for DD when it's eventually completed will probably be horrific >.< I might be able to get it squished down a bit though now that I know a bit more about shrinking file sizes and stuff. Maybe I can make the layers a bit more efficient too, but yeah, I think the full version will be pretty hefty. I would imagine it'll be bigger than whatever SR's file size is! Definitely over 2GB once all the assets are in there cos it'll be a lot of sprites, CGs, and VA x3
That's very kind of you to say <3 It makes me really happy that you've had fun with my stuff :3 Really appreciate all your kind comments!
I hope you get to have happy holidays with lots of tasty noms involved!! ^-^
It's okay - I know that life can be draining. Take a break whenever you need to.
My arms are weak, too, but that's because I'm really thin, and don't exercise, so it's my own fault.
It did hurt, and it bled a lot. We don't have a first aid kit, and no money to go to a hospital, so I had to wrap my arm in a towel until it stopped bleeding. We did have rubbing alcohol, just no bandages or cotton swabs, so I used a wash cloth to disinfect the areas.
I don't know about nerve damage, but if I try to tie an apron behind my back or something, my arm starts to hurt, and I have to stop moving it for a moment. That only happened once though, because I didn't do it again. Gonna go to the hospital when I can.
You wrote a character so well that you fell in love with him. That is a sign of a good writer. :)
My cousin never leaves me alone about getting a job. She says that I should work at a bookstore or a library since I like books, but I still have to talk to people, and I am really bad at math, so handling money would be difficult for me. I feel so bad though, that I am thinking about trying to find an online job, or maybe write a book, but...that's a whole other problem. Tight deadlines, overcoming writer's block...I don't think I can do it.
The only ones that I have around me are my cousins, and they contribute to my anxiety, so I can't go out with them. I don't mind opening windows if it's not too cold, though. That's enough for me.
My main issue is paranoia over what people might think of me, and a deep fear of interacting with others. After being bullied in middle school, and living with relatives that constantly fight, argue, criticize me and put me down, I'd rather not deal with the stress of dealing with others. The thought of it is terrifying, and thinking about how exhausted I would feel afterwards just takes away any motivation that I have.
It's okay to work on projects in your own time , and it's actually better if you take your time, so that you can be in the best mindset/headspace to complete it. That's fine, lots of games have partial voice acting; I just feel bad for the voice actor, and I'm sending love and kisses~ Whoa, eight gigabyte? All together to download it, and extract it, it would be over 16 gigabyte. And, even if it's a bit smaller, I would need to do a system reset to delete some files if it's not at least 4 GB to download and extract, making it 8 GB in total. I can't even play Genshin Impact because it's 16 gigabyte to download the data. XD
I see. I have to ask, without spoiling anything, is there a happy ending for everyone, including the player?
As long as the extracted file size doesn't exceed 7 or 8 gigabyte, I guess I'll be okay. I think Solipsism Reigns was 4 gigabyte...and I was still able to keep 2 GB of space. The issue is...there are too many preinstalled apps taking up space on my phone, but I don't want to try rooting my phone, cause I could break it. I reaaaally like Darling Duality, so I am willing to delete whatever I have to, to get it. The issue is if Winlator will play it. Will there be any long loading scenes in the game?
You're welcome. Your games help me escape my life for awhile. Especially Bitter/Sweet Blythe. If I had Orange Blythe in real life, I wouldn't need anyone else. That being said, I can distinguish reality from fiction, so I don't get too lost in fantasy; even so, sometimes it's nice to be pampered by a fictional guy. I am NEVER deleting this game. :D
I'll do my best to enjoy Christmas, and I hope you do the same. \(^O^)/