This made me sob violently and I needed it. It's my mother's 50th birthday in 10 days and she died pretty abruptly at 48. I miss her fucking incredibly and had to say goodbye for the last but not the first time halfway around the world over a video call via a shitty wifi connection. I was 29. Her father, who was functionally my dad, had died a year and four days prior—on valentine's day no less! hAHA
I wish I could say those were the only things that make me empathise so fucking deeply with this cosmonaut, with Atlas, with the Sisyphean effort in every After, with the recognition of memories being corrupted by reconsolidation and trying to remember anyway, that quintessential irony in the desperate attempt for connection by their recall. The regret you weren't prepared for because you had no way of fathoming it before. (you thought you were doing enough; but you know, too, that anything more would have been too much, would have interfered with being there in the moment, in those moments. this is just how it is. one cannot perfectly archive one's entire life.)
But they aren't the only, so the compounding of what was already terrible in these two losses by so much else is just... horrific devastating what the fuck p much catastrophic? nah don't wanna maKe It bIgGeR tHaN iT iS feels bad bro :/
But dusting the leaves. Humming. Caretaking. Hope, or at least the suspension of disbelief, the shelving of cynicism. The promise to love. The promise of love.
It helps.
I don't know you cecile but I love you for making this game; I hope you're well out there~ tl;dr: 10/10 game + soundtrack, abs fantastic will make u feel things in 30 secs or less