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Honestly, I agree that there was a second Chase. Again, I'm thinking it was an alien that took on a form that was nonthreatening to the townspeople. He was even "seen" before he came to town, by at least two different people.

I doubt Echo will go this far to explain, but I'm actually thinking Chase himself might be connected to the aliens. Either he's been abducted before (which could explain his crazy blackouts) or he actually is an alien but doesn't remember.

Echo seems to be reminiscent of the incident in Roswell back in the day. It's in a similar sort of situation, lots of open desert and actually flying saucers being seen is mentioned in Flynn's route.

I don't think I liked 8-bit Ryan much, but I can't recall.

Blackgate can be really depressing, I admit. Since you only do one route most of the time, I recommend Vincent's. Rotis's goes slightly further than Vincent's, but like I said Rotis's route needs a rewrite.

It's actually nowhere near as depressing as Echo. It's just different. It's dark in the literal sense, but your character actually isn't in -much- danger. It's like he's being protected.

Now, for Repeat, if you haven't played it yet, you should play Sissel's route. His is the longest and ends right after you get your first chance to repeat.

Hmm, An Elemental Secret. Gotta look that one up, thanks.

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Res Darkspark4 years ago

Your thaughts are all very well carefully considered, wow. I told it Blaidd.

By the way do you remember what I told you about WSSAP (Wolfstar Sins and Paradise)? You should give it a shot. It's awsome, my second favourite VN. They haven't made much money with it yet, which I find unfair, because it is so complex and everything about it is well rounded. You may not like the character designs (bara), but the story is definetly worth it. I think they've got the best music out of all VN's I've played. You can check the tracks out in the gallery.

Ah and Uncommon Breed is a similiar case. Again bara designed and a good, intersting story and combat scenes every now and then.

You said FNAF so I thaught you will like his videos, well doesn't matter ...

I bet you know who you like to watch.

So, there are three choices for me to make. Do I play Repeat-Sissel now or Flynn's route or Vincent's route in Blackgate? But first the new update of WSSAP! ;)

Hmm, yeah “An Elemental Secret“ is special. All Sonadow stories are special in a way, but so far this was my favourite storyline. The others are full of sex or darkness... You decide.

Still most or many visual novel stories are better than these.

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Samtoinette4 years ago

Oh cool, thanks.

I've played through WSSAP several times now. I'm glad they're getting to work on Dagio's route. It's not fully written yet but it's not bad. Of course the longest route right now is Hugo. Dagio is my favorite, with Cornelius being a close second... I'm hoping he'll pop up later and be like "I'm alive bitchessss" but we'll see. I played the new update a few times to see if anyone's routes had more put into them, but not so far. Just Dagio.

Then my third is Janus. I can't wait until Janus gets his own route, argh! Sucks that Alex's will probably come first -sigh-.

Uncommon Breed I've played a few times as well. I tend to play through what's available of each route before moving on to something else.

I like Markiplier for watching FNAF Let's Plays. His over the top reactions make me laugh.

I would suggest you go in the order of: Flynn, Sissel, then Vincent. That or Flynn, Vincent, Sissel. I say that because of how heavy the material is. My thoughts are that Echo is the darkest so it's best to get it out of the way. Then with Repeat and Blackgate, the original order is to break up the two darkest VNs with something lighter between them, and the reversed order is getting the dark stuff out if the way first and moving on to something lighter. Echo, Blackgate, Repeat is in the order of darkest to least dark. They're all heavy, of course, but Repeat is more creepy than heavy, I think.

I like a lot of Fanfiction too. Hell, I write it. My imagination can be better than what people come up with for VNs. It just depends.

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Res Darkspark4 years ago

On my second thaught I have to say the above statements were both lies...

My second favourite VN would be Morenatsu Revisited, Homecoming has a long way too go still.

Morenatsu has the best music too, though it is hard to say for sure.

Dagio is certainly a very important and interesting character. His story is my seond favourite route, because “best friends routes“ are just to die for. ;) So Hyper is number one and Dagio a close second. Well Hyper is rather bi than gay, buut whatever.

You know about Cornelius... I may or may not know more than you. There is one scene where the doppel (double?) ganger (german btw) of Dagio (the one in life, if he is one) says something to himself about how it would be nice for the person (don't know who it was, sorry) to meet up with Corny. So, my theory is it could be possible that he is still alive and I wouldn't be surprised too much. It's just a theory though. It could also be that the double ganger (if he's one) doesn't know about Cornelius's death.

Alex, this dirty rat, I don't like him either. He's like the lion from EA, such a cheater. I mean he seems like one...

Did you like UB? I find it pretty great so far and the combat scenes can be hard, so that makes it less a novel. Were you able to figure out the labyrinth? Wait, no, that is WSSAP...

I already got the 9.1 release, you will get it a while later. It focuses on the lion. What was his name, (so many VN character names to remember) I honestly forgot.

I know this channel, Markiplier, but I haven't watched any of his videos I think.

The worst first, it seems.^ So it shall be it then. There's only one problem. I am reading a Sonadow story at the moment and I will not lie it is awsome, as far as I came. It is called Sonic's Alpha and I will not spoiler anything. It is propably better than An Elemental Secret to be clear about the circumstances, and it belongs to your favourite (?) genre like the following.

Then I have to watch the last few episodes of Another. It is an anime that is different from animes that I have seen until now and has an IMDb rating of 7.8

It fits your favourite genre pretty, pretty good, is my guess...

And Brightburn is a film I wanna watch too. It pretends that Superman in his early age gets bullied and what do you think happens? You're right, we have a winner, he uses his abilities to do evil...

That is awsome, really. If I took the time I could write too maybe, but then again my english is not perfect enough to write a complex story for whichever fandom...

If you say so by yourself I believe you and it's impressive.

Now I remember I even have to play through Kilgigan's Treasure for once. There's alot on my list of 'priorities', as you can see.

(Sorry, I wanted to write earlier)

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Samtoinette4 years ago

I don't know why, but I'm not a big fan of the childhood friends-turned-lovers routes. They usually strike me as anticlimactic. One friend confesses, and the friend either immediately says they feel the same way, or they think about it for a day and then decide they feel the same way.

I do like Hyper's sex scene in the beginning though.

'Doppelganger' is used frequently in America too, so it's okay.

Yeah, I've played all the way through WSSAP a few times so I know what happens to Cornelius. He's an angel, so it shouldn't be that easy to kill him.

Haha, well Alex and Janus clearly have an open relationship. That said, I don't think he's a cheater, just shady.

And yes, I've done the labyrinth a good 10 times now.

I actually love EA's lion, Darius. I even become a $3 Patron on the months he'll have an update. Since your character isn't actually dating him, he technically isn't cheating. That said, as soon as he realizes how much it bothers your character, he stops sleeping around. Even though he's sleazy at first, I still recommend giving his route a try. I don't want to give away a spoiler, but he does become oddly affectionate, to the point he's bothered by it himself (and it's obvious).

The lion in UB is Juleon, and I played that update yesterday. That lion is such a damn tease! I wanna yell at him to stop the game of cat and mouse already. My character's getting blue, I swear.

I do like UB a lot. Gear, Reiner, Juleon, and Grizz are my favorites, in that order.

Sonic's Alpha... That sounds like an Omegaverse title. I actually really love Omegaverse stories. Also when it comes to fanfiction I prefer more romantic than horror. However, unlike most Americans, I like there to be conflict in some places so it's a little realistic.

I'm a huge Riren fan (Levi and Eren from Attack on Titan) and my favorite ff (fanfic) is The Intern. It has a good amount of conflict, but such a heartwarming story.

We're actually seeing Brightburn for the second time today. My brother hasn't seen it yet.

It is similar to Superman, but I don't think it's bullying that pushes him over the edge. But I'll leave that up to you.

Also, his name isn't Clark Kent, so it's not Superman in an alternate universe.

I think your English is better than most Americans who write fanfics. Your English doesn't have to be perfect, so if you want to write then you should.

There's really not a lot of Killigan's Treasure. It's also being rewritten so it might be better to wait until the new demo is released. It's being worked on now (after the project was abandoned for about a year). Obviously it's your choice, and the demo isn't bad, it's just pretty short.

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Res Darkspark4 years ago

Ha, you don't like natural ways of confessing love, that's it. Or not natural, but you get what I mean. It makes alot of sence to me that childhood friends become lovers. Although I can't say for sure, because I never really had one long enough to call him/her my childhood-friend. (And yes, I know *childhood*)

It could also be that such good friends feel like siblings to each other. If that was true a love story would just be awkward, I confirm.

Ahh it was definetly a nice touch and somewhat unique too, one could say.

Okay doppelganger it is, well it is german (Doppelgänger: nearly the same pronounciation too) and that's funny, cause normaly it's the other way around. Usually we have words of your language turned into our own.

Sorry, I can't blame you for saying it like that, but if I was the MC instead I would propably always feel rather suspisious and no betrayed is too strong of a word. But there are just too many couples and marriages that fall apart, so no thank you. (In reality of course)

Yeah, know that. He is a “Lightlion“ while Dagio is a “Shadowlion“ who doesn't look like one, I once stated on Patreon (it's still a secret why he doesn't look like a lion at all).

I am Patron of a couple VN creators, but not WolfBite Interactive. They already earn 7k per month. That is unfair in my opinion, because others put more work into creating their VN's, than they in their.

Really? Gear is your fav? Mine too (quite obvious right?), though I would've thaught you'd like others more.

Juleon and his sex magic... What didn't exist in the past exists now...

You HAVE to try Sonic's Alpha, it's awsome, very well written and dark as midnight! I don't really care about the sex scenes, because I can't imagine these hedgehogs having sex, but the story itself is great.

It is pretty clear what the whole thing is about after a few chapters. Does it make reading less exciting, no, surely not.

I just remembered isn't Attack on Titan an anime? I considered watching it, but there are so many animes and I was/am sure others were better, especially Avatar The Last Airbender which is technically an anime (anime=cartoon) or Assassination Classroom (I almost lost my sanity.....).

I'm going to watch Brightburn soon enough. I hope it is good. I think the IMDb rating is 7.

Maybe it isn't the bullying only. I haven't watched it, so yeah.

Ok, it isn't Superman, but it is a very similar story as his.

Do you have many siblings? I have two sisters one older and one younger.

To be fair every teen of every country happens to not care about writing skills anylonger nor reading. And writing *rofl* or whatever is more convenient, than writing what you're really feeling. (Not the best example I know...)

Hmm, I supported any VN I could support (I don't know how to support some like Morenatsu where the creator doesn't answer my question about support...) so far including (KGT) the “WOTB“ YAGS.

Even if it is so that it has a short storyline I would read it over YAGS all day and night.

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Samtoinette4 years ago

I always view the childhood friends storylines as awkward. Though I was pleasantly surprised by Extracurricular Activities' friend-turned-lover story.

Your character is suspicious of Darius at first, but there's a tragedy that strikes and the MC can find out he hasn't been around the block lately.

Honestly, I'd rather WolfBite take it slowly. At least they have steady updates, unlike Bane with Blackgate.

At first I liked Reiner more, but I was happy when Gear's route came out. I generally like the stoic characters, but Gear is just so charming.

Yes, Attack on Titan is an anime. It's quite popular too. I imagine you'd ship other characters than I do though lol. Which is fine, to each their own.

I have one older brother. We're 9 years apart.

Morenatsu is finished, and it was basically just porting a PC game to Android. Besides, it was the makers of Homecoming who ported it, they just let someone else hang on to their original port while they decided to add to it and rename it Homecoming. It'd feel wrong if they were taking donations for it, honestly.

Everything in Morenatsu from the PC game is the same in the Android version, except they increased the resolution on CGs and stuff.

I can only afford to support VN creators occasionally, but I do want to support ones I really like. I considered helping with Blackgate, but after so many months of 'housecleaning' updates, I decided to wait. Bane is so focused on keeping a schedule that Blackgate isn't having any real updates.

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Res Darkspark4 years ago (1 edit)

EA and TA not? Weird, but each their own as you wrote.

Is it maybe cause the MC lives in a shelter and is therefore to pity or something?

I mean Yuuichi's and Shoichis story is so heartwarming and cute (not gonna lie :), just look at Uke's reaction, it's priceless (UkeKooki channel).

I know, Blackgate fans are constantly complaining about the pretty much non-existing new content each update brings to them.

You wouldn't expect it from Gear, would you? Yeah he is attractive, charming, I bet romantic and his background story is moving, pretty unlikely for a wolf if you ask me. (When I think of a wolf I think of our 'dog'... or werewolves.)

Even though I don't know Attack on Titan I am sure Assassination Classroom is better :P

9 years how does that work...? I am from my sisters around 2-3 years apart.

Have you watched Deckerlink's VN rating list? He made two videos recently about the worst 20 and best 10. Number 20 is Morenatsu and even though he explained his position pretty well I find it unfair, because it was mostly because of it being unfinished. I know it doesn't excuse everything, but I think it deserves something better. You recommended it to me that means you really like it too?!

I am disappointed that they couldn't manage or finish their project too of course.

I really hope they'll work it out with Homecoming. Honestly I prefer Revisited over Homecoming, for now.

I watched Brightburn and wow was it cool. Although I think they could've made it much better. I would've liked to see more school scences and maybe more police research, more besides the murdering scenes so to say.

It was hard to believe how he hid his new-self (being possessed is like a new-self) and then the end oh my. I thaught he was done. His “fathers“ plan didn't succed at all, but there was no 'hope' for it anyway. The “mother“ though, that scene was amazing. As soon as he grabbed her hand she was already dead...

The end shows us that we are allowed to assume getting (please tell me if this is correct! Or is it 'to get'?) another part or it's just an open ending, which would be fine. (I think he is unstoppable with all his powers)

Do you know the series Archer or Disenchantment? Both are incredible funny (and animated) and I would recommend them adults/teenagers instead of kids. Disenchantment was made by the creators of The Simpsons and is better in my eyes. Archer has 10 -11 seasons and is just so good, but you have to like the comical humor, which is not everybody's favourite and yours propably too.

My family and I are not rich, wealthy yes, but not rich and because I still live with my parents I am still being supported. Dad's a CEO of a pretty big hospital and works alot, sadly...

Mom supports a “syndrome kid“ (like me) at school.

I also got very lucky with my “godmother“ (what a weird translation...). She and her husband have no childs and supported me and their other “godchild“ instead.

I only spend my money for clothes and fitness articles (no weights anymore, well a weightvest and a cheap traning tower) and I rather spend my money for these hard working VN creators, than for a flatrate or video games for example too.

I love doing sports, so I do Calisthenics on my own. I hate competitions, so no teamsport for me. I tried several sports, but I don't know. I think I have the requirements for pretty much any sport and could become pretty good in many, but I'm too shy, no not shy, but I'm too afraid to be marginalized (like at school) to enter a club and wouldn't know which sport to choose... stupid me...

I also find parcour running exciting, though I have no clue if it's possible where I live.

(You don't have to write about your family (maybe I am too open, as you know by now) Everything I write is the truth)

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Samtoinette4 years ago

It's definitely not pity that Darius feels. He's actually legitimately touched that the MC trusts him, then after an... altercation (not physical) Darius realizes how much the MC cares if he sleeps around so he stops. It's like they're dating but it's not like 'official' because Darius is scared of commitment (which is also explained in his route).

Heh, unfortunately I agree. At first I thought the complaining was unwarranted, but then I saw Bane was double charging the patrons each month with updates that were 15 minutes apart, plus the lack of content. I commented that Bane should drop the strict schedule and work to give proper updates. I probably will be ignored, but at least I tried. Besides, Bane said they were rewriting large portions of Blackgate, so I recommended they stop updating until they catch up to where the current build is.

I can't bring myself to harm wolves in video games. The first thing I try to do if I can is find a mod so the wolves are friendly in each game I play. Otherwise, I run away as often as I can. I guess deep down they're still my favorite wild animal from when I was young.

I think Grizz's backstory is more moving, but I'm dying to know what makes Reiner tick. He's so close-lipped about himself.

Well, just like in Brightburn, my brother and I were both adopted (as newborns). Most adults my age have parents that are around late 40s or early 50s. My parents are in their early 60s. I guess they didn't want another kid when my brother was super young. I'm really grateful though, because my birth family is awful. I've met them, and now want nothing to do with them.

If you're including my birth family, I have one older brother and three younger sisters from them, for a total of two older brothers.

I only count the one I grew up with though, and he's the one that's 9 years older than me.

I have not. I don't put a lot of faith in reviewers, honestly. Probably because I always like movies that the movie critics hate. It translates into other fields as well though.

Was he reviewing Morenatsu or Morenatsu Revisited?

Either one, I honestly only liked two available routes. I've done them all.

Tatsuki, the Dragon, was an alcoholic and too bold for me. His route has too many twists and turns and too many endings that don't make any sense at all. I also preferred other characters on his specific route to himself.

Kounosuke, the Tanuki, was such a self-absorbed schemer. He's late to everything and honestly only cares about himself.

Shun, the Wolf (innocent kid, not grey husky-- it's easy to get them mixed up), was like dating a child. He's too innocent, his route just made me feel like a dirty old person.

Juuichi, the Bear, wasn't bad but I was honestly more interested in someone else in his specific route. He's kind and thoughtful, but his route wasn't exciting to me.

Torahiko, the Tiger, wasn't bad either but like all best-friend-turned-lover stories it was too anticlimactic for me. It also ends the soonest, you don't finish half the game after choosing Torahiko.

Kyouji (the Dog) and Soutaro (the Lion) both have unfulfilling endings. I don't want to give anything away, though the outcome is obvious even if you haven't played their 'routes'.

Kouya, the Husky, was my second favorite. I can't even describe why, but I guess because it had so much depth to it. His route wasn't superficial like everyone else's was, he had realistic issues.

And Shin, the Cat, as I've said before was my favorite and still is. I love opening up the stoic characters, and his shocked, blushing face is the cutest to me.

Yeah, clearly Brandon's father didn't think his plan through. Your son has never had a cold, been bruised, or bled and you think shooting him will work?

His mother at least had a better idea of what to do.

It wasn't the ending I hoped for. I wanted his mother, at least, to protect him. I thought she'd burn his notebooks to protect him from the police. Instead, she tried to kill him as well. You could tell he felt so betrayed in that moment. I don't blame him, I would've too.

I think "assume we're getting" works better, but yes they left it open for another. I'm not sure if they'll make another or just leave it open. I honestly don't see where they could go with the next film because Brandon is too powerful. He's just going to take over the world, and nothing can stop him.

I hate Archer, but I love Disenchantment.

My family was always on the poor side. Not dirt poor, mind you, we were never homeless and always had food on the table, but we didn't have the money to get a lot of extra things. That's largely because of many mistakes my father made, but he's done his best to support us.

My mom homeschooled me and my brother, and dad insisted she didn't work and educated us instead (which was seriously a good thing. The schools in America are going downhill at a rapid pace). She went with me to college and got her Master's degree in Psychology so she could teach at the college level. I'm back in school because I didn't learn the right things for a field I'm actually interested in.

I've never had an allowance or anything, so I just occasionally get paid for the work I do on the computers at home. I help mom with her paperwork at the end of the semester and keep the computers free of malware. When something's malfunctioning, I'm always asked about it.

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Res Darkspark4 years ago

There is so much I could write right now...

Edit: yep it is alot

Okay I understand, I just don't like the thaught that while they are building up a relationship Darius is sleeping with others or did I understand something wrong? In either case I wouldn't like having a former porn star as boyfriend...

It's nice too hear they are working on it, but exploiting voluntary sponsers is not a fair method for making money.

How could anyone, should be the question. I am certain you didn't know that in Mongolia they hunt with trained wolves. The problem is they even hunt wolves down with them and I don't get why they do it!

I don't know what brings me to love wolves. Maybe they look very majestic and wild in my eyes.

I would rather like to be a werewolf, than a pathetic human being who destroys the earth... I know that does sound weird. It's just I don't see advantages of a human life over an animal life. Either one lives the life of each kind.

Being the hero or villain of a tv-show or computer game sounds like “fun“ too. At least any imaginable fantasy world has to be more exciting. Everything that is possible to do on earth has already been done by someone, so there is nothing new left.

By the way have you looked into Sonic's Alpha? It becomes less nice for my taste later on, but it is still very good written and definetly very creativ.

All of these characters have to deal with all kinds of sad pasts, I assume?! That Reiner doesn't talk much about himself I did notice.

Adastra got updated and it's perfect, a very realistic feeling update. I am dying for what happens next! The update is called “Confessions of a prospective emperor“ (“In which feelings are talked about...“).

Friends of us have adopt a kid which came from an unstable family/mother like you. I am really sorry to hear this, though I guess people feeling pity for you is what you're used to and therefore you propably don't like to hear it...

Yeah you don't have to say the others are your family if they are that awful. I wish I was closer to my sisters, but they are both very different from me. They have tons of friends, are confident in themselfs, know exactly what they wanna do, are (going to) studying/study...

I wish I was born in the middle of nowhere, on a ranch or something. My mom grew up on a farm, which is now her brothers farm. The best scenario I can imagine is living far away from the civiliaziation with your so loved love...

Both of my parents are past age 50

If you like criticized movies/series try out “I Kill Giants“. I really like this movie for some reason. I think it's unique/original. It's about a young girl... who kills giants?

I agree until a certain point with that statement. IMDb isn't always trustful.

I can't remember correctly, but I'm pretty sure it was non of them. I think it was Morenatsu Homecoming, from which I can't install the newest update.

Hmmhmm Shun looks more like his age in Homecoming, than in Revisited.

Tatsuki is more is more the irresponsible kind of guy, with bad drinking habits.

Are you serious with Torahiko's route? He is such a cute and energetic kitten. Shame upon the devs for not expanding or finishing his story, just kidding... or am I?

Kounosuke is a nerd and also irresponsible, but different from Tatsuki.

Juuichi is a nut that needs to be cracked open.

Kyouji and Soutaro: Soutaro is like Shun too young to be a route. (Or at least he looks young) Kyouji's character art looks weird, that might just be me though.

Poor Shin has asthma, he is nothing for a sports person like me. I admit he's adorable.

Kouya's more the cool, responsibly kind of guy. I like him.

The best of the Homecoming version so far is the change of the MC now being an anthromorphic animal too, like his friends. It is one thing that made and makes Morenatsu better than EA. The anthromorphic animals are like superhumans and therefore not suitable for humans.

I am glad the devs are reworking and rewriting the story and game almost entirely.

Brandon's “father“ is an idiot, of course his plan killing his “son“ was doomed from the beginning. To be fair shooting is a little different from what you've mentioned, although I agree.

His “mother“ had the right idea, but however Brandon was able to “sense“ her attack. In the end Brandon testing her mother was a great idea, if it was what the creators intended. This idea is very thoughtful of you. I haven't thought of that.

I can't blame “his“ mother for the attempt. She wasn't herself anymore since the moment she saw the dead body near his spaceship. And yes, even though she betrayed him what he did or turned into is much worse. I don't blame any of these people, except “his“ father for such a poor, reckless and silly attempt.

The next movie could be about a guy like Lex Luther who tries to stop Brandon. (Lex Luther is the archenemy of Superman)

Well, I don't take any of these series serious, so I can enjoy them. Not only Archer is full of disgusting deaths and rape. In Disenchantment there is the one scene were the woman drowns in the lake, because our “gang“ doesn't help her. I am sure you remember her saying “I am non-swimmer“ and the elf answers “I am Elfo“ (or what it was). That's pretty sadistic if you ask me.

Archer isn't even the most cruel and grose series. Netflix's Paradise PD or Big Mouth are even worse. These shows I really don't like, but the drug addict dog of PPD is “cool“....

I don't actually know how or if I should say that... I do it anyway.

From what I can tell your position in society hasn't affected your intelligence or what you're capable of in the slightest. In fact I wish I would've had a harder life like you, not a life full of like rape, drugs and so on, but hmm physical work for example. Why? A harder life makes you stronger and more capable of dealing with stuff. I guess your home education teached you alot of important things.

I know I heared of that. Many people from other countries say America's people are on average the most stupid... I also heared you can use your phones whenever you want or at least kids do whatever they want in class basically.

I hope I don't upset you with what I write! It's not my opinion and it's not your fault.

That you and your mom had the courage to go to school as adults is admirable.

Did you work somewhere, early on, to make money? I am rather the modest person. I don't need much, but sometimes I still buy something for myself, because I am bored, I guess...

You can be dirt poor and still be very happy. Rich people are most of the time the ones who are unhappy with everything. There is a video on youtube (in german) which is about a family, of billionairs, of 2 homosexual men who have 2 kids (one boy and one girl). These kids are so called rich kids that get everything they wish from their parents and it's unbelievable sad and funny and stupid at the same time... Example: while the boy is driving with one of his dads in his new car he asks him what his next gift will be....

Here is the video.

title: 5000€ is too little pocket money (only pocket money, gifts not included)

I can tell you what it is about if you want.

I am now about to be very honest with you.

As I told you I always was an outsider at school, which made me stronger and more confident in myself than others, but it also left me alone. What I mean is I never really had anybody to do something with, somebody I can trust (a friend for life). I once had a good friend for a couple of years and always a couple other kids, but I could never see them as friends. We never visit each other. I was only together with them at school.

I had some memorable moments in my school time, but school was mostly “cancer“, especially when I was younger.

Another thing when I was younger is my syndromes acted stronger. I was sometimes aggressive to be honest, had tantrums.

(Propably I am a little exaggerating, but my past is still nothing I really wanna remember again...)

You know what, as much as I love my parents I don't feel close to them either. There is no one around me who has the same interests as I have, the reason why I feel close to nobody. I wish people were more open like me also.

An unknown factor for me is how people, especially my family, will react about my sexuality. I don't want to disappoint them.

You work with computers as a woman? Awsome! I want to become a programmer, maybe, though I don't know if it is what I'd like to do for a long time. I'm an energetic person (when I'm not depressed) and sitting infront of a pc so long doing what programmers do is hard.

Okay, maybe I'm not really depressed, but often sad for sure.

I once read a comment from a guy under a furry art video on youtube who talked about himself wanting to suicide. I think he didn't do it though and I replied to him that he is not the only one that feels alone and whatnot.

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