I'm so glad to know that you read my story so no need to feel sorry about that ๐ In my darkest days at highschool, I had to deal with my parents, lovers, friends and studying at the same time all by myself, which was way too much for a teenager. Parents checked all my messages without my consent and threatened my boyfriend and me, my boyfriends ditched me 3 times, friends at school verbally harrassed my sexuality (I realize I have that internalized homophobia too) At least, I have been through the worst situation so what could be worse :)))?
I can completely sympathize to your situation when being gay was treated as a sin. In Asia, people are still judgemental about this subject so coming out is always a long story. I even have to make a plan for this :)))) and the worst scenerio might be me being kicked out of my own family ๐