Wow . . . this is a very powerful Twine. The pacing and narrative voice are both excellent. Just . . . wow.
So, I think what happened is that Chris wouldn't let the narrator kill himself, but he himself committed suicide. I have to ask, is this biographical, or is it fiction?
(I'm also in this Twiny Jam, by the way. My game is HCF. Check it out? Feedback is always welcome!)