I think a lot of what's messing you up, again comes down to subtext.
I'm not going to just give you the answers because I shouldn't need to. But to help things along, here are some questions to think about:
- What would it be like to want to love freely in a openly hostile and homophobic environment in your informative years?
- What's it like to suffer guilt so strong you need medication?
- Is Tyson looking to be worthy of a kiss, or something else? Why?
- What would the mindset be of someone afraid to accept being potentially into guys for fear of reprisal?
I feel like I'm failing you guys by not spelling this out but at the same time I feel like I shouldn't need to.