Thank you, Len 🫂💕💕 Ahhhh.... this was very sweet...
I'm trying to take care of myself. The disconnect has helped a lot: only by completely switching my head to something else besides the game was I able to at least feel a bit better, even if now it's made me feel rather cynical about the game and my work in general (which is better than spiraling at least, that's for sure lol)
But I think sometimes we also need to just be able to step back objectively and realize when something isn't giving us the joy that we had hoped it would. I get so much joy when I create and make stories and characters but I always end up losing that joy when I share my work and then that turns into hating myself. So maybe I do just need to figure out a new path for myself. I don't know. We'll see. I'm just feeling a bit nihilistic about everything right now I suppose 🤣 Maybe I'll just be done after this and this is the last thing I try to do. Or maybe in a month from now I'll get a little spark again and I'll be working on something new. Who can say. For now I'll just keep trying to focus on other things and give myself some peace where I can while battling the unemployment depression.
Anyway, what you wrote means a lot. And it also gave me a smile. Thank you so much for everything and being so sweet and encouraging always 💕