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"My target audience is the people who have something wrong with them" - target audience reached
In all seriousness I'm sorry you've had a Hell year. I'm sorry that everything fucking sucks. It feels twisted to say "I'm glad you're still here" when I spend a lot of time wishing I Was Not Here, but I really, truly am.

I can't offer any practical words because I am a living embodiment of not having a reason to exist outside my work, and everything that affects the latter impacts the former. But I want there to be a version of you that is happy and able to exist comfortably and do the things you want to do, and hope that the world lets you become that version of you sooner than later.

ArcanaXIX16 hours ago(+2)

Sorry for taking so long to respond to this, although given context clues you can probably put together why I am not on top of my shit rn lol.

Thank you. Genuinely. I wish you didn't have to spend a lot of time feeling that way. I'm so glad I came across your VNs on a random itch.io search and found you, you're an indescribably big inspiration as an artist, and just as a person I'm really glad to know you.

I definitely know how it feels to not have a reason to exist outside my creative work. That was what this game was for me for 3 years, so it was terrifying when it stopped being that and I suddenly didn't have anything tethering me here. I finally got an appointment with a therapist who hopefully won't ghost me this time, so fingers crossed I can figure my shit out and see any path forward where I can create and also survive, because I've historically avoided doing the things that make that a possibility (while refusing to reckon with the consequences) and it's driven me into a corner.

I am rooting for you every step of the way on your journey too. I admire you a lot as someone who has taken big risks I haven't and invested in your work in a way I always avoided doing, and I both really hope and believe it will pay off for you. Once I'm feeling more sane I actually want to ask you for advice on a lot of things, but first I need to take a breather and establish some sort of baseline stability and actually plan a more realistic long-term path forward this time.

Thank you again for your comment, it means a lot.