Oh no, that's absolutely heartbreaking to lose everything you'd worked on, I'm so sorry. It makes sense why writing stories or coming up with ideas would be really challenging after something like that.
Perfection is definitely another one of those things that's so tricky to work with. I think for most creators, it's natural for us to want what we create to match what we envision in our minds as close as possible. But it can be really frustrating when the two don't line up like we'd like. I'm so glad you were able to get a bit of your fun back through gel pens and coloring books!
This is a great idea, taking the time to do something fun without worrying about it. I took your advice and did a couple short story scenarios and it's helped so much, thank you for the advice :) Creating should be fun, thank you for reminding me that that's what's really important in the process <3