I'm so sorry again, Chim, it's really so awful and ridiculous... I have been really demotivated myself and feeling so hopeless about everything so I completely understand. I think it would be good to focus on some other types of projects or things that give you more motivation or joy right now. There's no reason to force it. It will only hurt and stress you even more. I do hope you're able to find something at least no matter what it is to give you a spark again and find some happiness in creation.