Firstly, I didn't think that I would ever mention this, but... I'm a girl so your suggestion is incredibly tempting but impossible.
Secondly, you have nothing to apologize for. You wrote that this game is difficult. And as an author, you have your own vision of the game. Actually, it reminds me of play-station games from 90s without saves... Oh, there were the times...
And once again... I really like your game, it has potential. I look forward to the final version and believe it will be awesome.