But that not-good-of-a-being is much more enticing to follow, rather than live in this world. In its arms are my happiness, my impossible dreams that come to life, where laws of nature doesn't impede on what I want, need, and in that it will fight for me. It will take care of me to the yonder. I trust it. I feel secure, freer, than this pain I bear which no one could understand. For me, it is better there than here. I believe in it and my hopes there and my standing there are better and grief is short and I have someone there. Cause in this reality. The world ignores me and my pain but in that world, place. It comforts me. The trust in this world is unmendable, corrupt, and bringing me closer to insanity, at least there I could say heaven is near. It is real for me, If I can do jump there without shedding my body its good but. It requires it for me. For myself. I believe my reality is my nightmare, my place today is my prison, and those of who speak to me are broken to care, broken to mind their own business, I see broken people, whilst I am shattered to pulp, I share this to you because it wasn't mitigating my pain, I am sharing this to you because no one cares to feel someone is hurt and sometimes broken people cannot help broken people but to actually proceed the all due process of getting itself through, if this isn't a goodbye, hope I can pass myself to another day. But if not, all I can say is, thank you, and I am happy to know you a bit if this is my last or my last dream.
You know if writing into a paper your words sounds kind poetic into the right lines.
Just writing little by little into separated pages and maybe published it and see what happed!
Just a little though.
I will type something more here. My mind is working something.
Not that but something I though too remembered.
People have to find happiness inside themselves to not feel lost when alone.
Because other people are not a remedy to cure someone's loneliness(yes you said you don't feel lone)or sadness.
But someone one to add to yourself happiness.
Find things you like and love so turn those into habits into your life.
I love to read visual novels before sleep everyday because that huge lists in my profile.
I am still writing the think in my mind so I will post it after I finish it.