I agree with many others here. Take the time you need. I understand how losing a parent feels and know how hard it hits, though I can't imagine the grief you feel from having two losses so close together. Take care of yourself and do only what you can, don't push yourself to get it done asap. I agree with Lu that I too would rather wait a long time for a good game to be made with love than for it to be rushed and not turn out the way you'd like it. May you find some comfort in our words and no need to be embarrassed about reading things over again and again to remember your reasons why you love being a dev and writing. It isn't true what they say, words can hurt you, but they can also lift you. I hope this year goes better for you than last year. <3