That's just Impossible.....I was too young to even consider that.....and I have no idea we're she went.......but she probably has a good life right now......a life that I couldn't give her.........I think that, it would only have worked if I never had left.....I would probably be a entire different person.........but I can't wish for that......I can't imagine me, not being me....... it's something I can only imagine in a different time line .....and the demon me in my head told me to stop thinking about it.....that nothing good is going to come out of it.....
Aw, I don't wanna force you either but reading that story made me sad, and I don't want your story to end like this, cause if you find a way to contact her, your story would probably end with a happy ending and happy endings are the best, even then, you have nothing to lose by contacting her, who knows, she might be living near your house
You don't need to feel sad for me.....so much things happened in my life that I basically never let something affect me...... sometimes people think that I don't care about things....ot that I'm insensitive.......I just put logic above everything else in my head, and this kinda made me look emotionless outside, I do care.....but I'm not willing to show it....... maybe I even forgot how to do it......so I just don't try anymore.....the last time I tried to be more open......all my body and mind just screamed...... I'm just not compatible with this anymore.......but, don't worry.... I'm happy.....I have given up on love a long time ago......but this is a history for another time......