Hey there! sorry I couldn't respond on your Patreon post Ghur, I am poor. I wanted to send my condolences and I hope you get the resources you need. I can't even imagine going through what you are going through, but I hope this message at least makes you feel a bit better. Drink some tea, hug the hubby, and read some of the messages people sent you, I feel they are doing more justice to inspire you than me. Also, get on that therapists' ass and get them to have a meeting with you!