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we got really specific with the details of the disability (for me eds and endo) but in doing that i was hoping to hit on something more universal. disability is such a paradox because it’s so isolating, but i think a lot of us are going through the same things. i hate that so many of us have been made to feel so dehumanized and miserable, but i’m glad we could be there for you right now. hope you get out of diagnostic hell soon!!

9/10 skin picking warriors give up before the beautiful woman that loves you crawls out of the horrible wound you created KEEP GOING (do not do that)

this game is so goddam miserable to play through. i thought i was prepared based on the premise and i was not. i thought i knew how it would end and it was worse. 10/10 fantastic experience.

i dare you all to find the embroidery that was originally done for frozen the musical

i also have dermatillomania and the cold open was absolutely about how fuckin good it feels to let the derma demon win and just go to town on that thing that's bugging you. except now whenever nat catches me picking my skin they say "noooo you're gonna end up with a woman".

one of the first things i knew i wanted to do with this was have the mc end up in a wheelchair and let that be an unequivocal good. we don't always get a cure, we don't always get to be free of pain, but disabled life is worth living regardless.

yeah i'd say the worst of the medical scenes actually came from me trying (and failing) to get an endo diagnosis. while a lot of the novel was inspired by heds i'd say it's pretty broadly applicable to anyone that's dealt with the medical system and energy-sapping chronic illnesses!

we played this on my podcast!! absolutely perfect for forcing the characters to sit down and take stock of a messy, difficult relationship. i think every character ever should have to do this. https://rss.com/podcasts/storyplayerspod/2965693

oh my god yes please 

This essay really, really hits. The complete lack of sex and sexual violence in AP is something I think about a lot, and like... I get it, I do. People generally don't like rping sex in depth. Rping on camera is already weird and vulnerable enough without bringing sex into it. There is a play culture that assumes sexual violence is off limits no matter what, so even if you are ok exploring it in play privately, you might not want to do it out in the open. (And god, that fear of playing wrong, of playing something that might not be morally correct, that makes it so hard to press publish on every episode I make).

People have sex! We are adults and we are supposedly making the low budget, scrappy, weird queer art! Why is it so fucking G-rated! Why is it so self-censored! I make a show that barely even has sex, we just lean harder into horror than is generally acceptable, and we talk all the time about how it's ok to do this because if someone doesn't want to listen they aren't our audience. And yet I'm still paralyzed by the anxiety that someone will get mad at me for playing toys in a morally incorrect way!

Fully respect the decision to get out, but it sounds like you're someone that might be able to make stuff that's actually meaningful. Thank you for writing this.

Realis really gives you a wide palette of the kinds of characters/games you can play and this is a really fun set of moons for stretching that. I can see it working as something you build your entire campaign around, or a moon you have your band stop on to get them out of their element and remind them there's more to life than swinging swords around. Cabaret moon seems like an especially fun place to set a beach episode type arc.