// heads up, very lax talk abt suicide
This really made me melancholic which, tbh , I kinda already guessed I was gonna feel even before I downloaded the game. In a lot of ways, this reminded me of the suicide note I had written a few years ago. I had talked about regrets, my family, my friends. I talked about dreams I had dedicated my life to and how that passion wasn't enough to make me want to stay alive. I talked about feeling tired and wishing I could close my eyes and never open them again. There were a lot of things I said which the game reminded me of and it kinda makes me smile cause, "Oh, I guess I wasn't the only one thinking that."
The narrator talking about how much effort it is to try to die and I wanted to laugh cause true! I remember when I reached out to a professional, I talked about how even if I wanted to die, it was so fucking bothersome to figure out how to do it. I talked about various methods and why those weren't feasible or realistic or how I couldn't do any of those without being questioned. I had told them that in a joking manner, but I did seriously think about which way was the easiest to go.
Besides myself, it did also make me think of my friends, a few of which have attempted. They were unsuccessful, thankfully but sometimes when things are too quiet I go check on them. Tbh, I think the idea of suicide never leaves you, even if you've gotten better. The thought isn't that prominent but sometimes they sit at the back of your head, whispering, tugging at the sleeves of your clothes, and telling you to look at them. I'm better now. God, so much better. But yeah, it's still there.
Idk what else to say really, it's very straightforward. Not much theatrics. Like yeah, I'd believe this was someone's last words. For the sake of saying something objective, the medium was really helpful in creating the overall mood. No GUIs, no choices, nothing pretty cause yeah the game is not getting finished but there are beats. Pauses. So yeah, that helps in creating the visual image of a rambling narrator. If this was executed in a different medium it wouldn't be as effective.
anyways, nice game. made me think a lot and reflect. i'm glad to still be here.
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this was amazing!!! i had so much fun playing it!! the story immediately drew my attention in, i really liked the explanation on how magic worked in the world. i'm interested to see what other magical elements are there. i'm most especially curious to know what what exactly mc's grandma is and how does she know the things she knows. lowkey, i may have an idea but gotta wait and see.
the characters were so charming!! i loved all of them. god, i can already imagine being absolutely torn on which route to choose once the full game comes out. there's so much to explore and so many interactions to witness. i can't wait to play though them all.
great demo!! can't wait to see what you guys have planned for the story <3
I had so much fun with this one!! it was thrilling to play the whole thing and i just kept pressing the space bar to see what would happen next. also, fuck, adam !! (lmao.) i just really like how much of a jerk he is, how infuriating and despicable he can be. his background is also really intriguing and i already have some idea of what it could be, but really, whatever his background may be, he is the worst <3. angry, violent, sexually repressed man with lots of religious trauma loaded on his back, i hope to see your demise one day <3 you ain't unique. i have my religious trauma too <3
i'm also curious to see how saffron and adam's relationship will developing following the events of chapter 2. likewise, i'm curious to see what saffron will think of us as the story progresses.
also, slay mc. you probably should learn to shut up sometimes for your own good but honestly, i can't blame you. someone needs to bring adam down a peg.
anyway, yeah i had fun!! great game!! love the characters!! can't wait to see what you have planned for it <3
this was really nice!! i've recently realized i'm ace around two years ago and following that, i've started reevaluating the things i want in my life. the whole "feeling broken" and "not finding the right one" is definitely relatable lmao. that and when MC went on a date and felt wrong? yeah been there, even made a relationship out of it lmao.
and i don't know, i was really struck by the title when i first saw this on twitter. like yeah, i do want someone to hold me. i want someone in my life. i want the kind of love that promises me that they'll be there for me through all the troubles and mundane stuff in life. and i think realizing that 'yes, i can still have that, it'll just be difficult to find' was what broke my heart the most when i had sat down and fully thought through about what being ace means for me.
but i can live without romantic love, because i'm loved by my family and friends. and honestly, i've never more felt more at peace with myself than when i realized i was ace. so yeah!! thank you for the game!! made me think about a lot of things lmao.