Hey Carrot, read your post.
I'm so sorry that has been happening to you! You truly don't deserve that, and I hope you get better soon. It might be better to distance yourself from social media for awhile and be around your family if you're still going through the grief of losing your loved ones.
As for the hate, it's best to just ignore it and try to not get it through your head, as it will only drag you down further.
I wish I had more advice to offer, but I'm not good with advice in general. I can only wish you the very best.
I adore your game, however, and will continue to support you from afar!
Stay safe.