As someone who's struggled with addiction this is... so intensely accurate to the feeling. And I'm sure that's applicable to other things, mental illness, specifically eating disorders have similar feelings attached. It's such a concise, painful, beautiful, achingly direct representation of how it feels. This toxic relationship with numbness, with escapism, with a pain that you made into a part of you... It's hard to shake. The "good ending," with the friend, that's really important to me. Having support systems is how you get away. Addictions, mental illness, even literal abusive relationships, all convince you they're your only friend, your only support. They work by isolating. Please, if you're suffering, don't let yourself be isolated. People care. If not people you have now, seek some out. Find support. Whether in support groups, online, in a hobby group, school, whatever.
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I'm looking at this game + this comment again a year on and wanted to leave a note for anyone reading it now. When I wrote this, I was struggling to get sober, less than a month in, and this game hit me hard. Now, I'm 2 months past a year sober, building a life for myself with someone I love. It's worth it, it's more than worth it. There's ways to exist and a world without the abusive relationship that addiction traps you in. It's still hard, and you never stop being an addict. But you stop giving to addiction, you make a decision every day to choose something else, and that something else is yourself, your life, your present, your future. It's worth it.