I endeavor to say what I do and act as I do, do to what I myself experience. Emotions all come from somewhere, but logic is understanding them. The feeling of being out of place and the feeling of being sheltered and shut in is something I struggle with, though it also something that I acknowledge that I am too part of the cause for it continuing.
Getting to the pivotal points in ones work that they have previously outlined for themselves is a major accomplishment. I will read the revised opening, it sounds interesting to see the changes you made.
Life isn't always easy, when you combine us being our own worst enemy with that of those who see us needlessly suffer. Curiosity has its place as means to learn, but it can also be dangerous, and what happens as a result is what ends up shaping us.
In the end though we must all press on, some suffering is required to get some happiness, but suffering should never be just to live. Support and be supported, for no on can do things alone forever.