Im way too young to understand this on a mom level, but this is the exact anxiety i face when I have my patients in front of me. I know its not the same at all, but i defenetly get the anxiety attacks and the anguish when you feel you did or will do something wrong that will change the course of their life forever, and that need to be there with them, helping them become what they want.
And also the shared culture of Hollywood childbirth is stupid, fuck that, lets normalise people not being all hyped up after such a traumatic expirience.