I completely empathize with you. Game dev can be really challenging when done solo, especially when something was perceived as simple and straight forward becomes a big ordeal. It feels like it should be easier than it is (especially when you take a step back and look at all you've made), and you might start blaming yourself instead of the unseen complexity that is the game that you are creating.
I just want to say that I've been there, and I am not the only one. There are many other game devs out there that are in a similar struggle and have overcome it or are in a similar bind currently. Reaching out to talk shop can be very cathartic, and I urge you to do so!
My discord tab is always open if you want someone to talk to about this :)
thanks! Yeah, just talking about it on here felt good. I definitely need to get out of my personal bubble with this stuff and stop being afraid to show others and get their feedback. I always want to do everything myself, but I think everyone needs a hand sometimes.
I think it is very important to have a number of game devs you talk to closely in addition to 'followers' you post to. I would compare it to a work out circle of friends who motivate each other to work out and not start trailing off, sharing tips ect.