bruv i didn't have real legitimate friends until i turned 15
Until that point i was a massive mess
Not to shit on ur friends but it might be the people ur hanging out with
Like in my experience, until last year I'd only hung out with the basic white girls in my class. And they all kinda sucked as friends (so i was the only nd, queer trans kid). It wasn't until i started hanging out with people who were actually like me (cough gay and neurodivergent people) that i started feeling better in social situations
And Yeah talking to new people is hard as heck which is why you make yourself seem approachable so they talk to you first
Also how can you have a crush on someone you don't know personally, that doesn't make sense to me, can you explain what you feel when you see him