This was heartbreaking. Thank you so much for making this. I'm sorry to hear about the lack of support you received after your trauma. There are so many social ills that our negative feelings reveal, and it's sickening to hear that the people around you at the time simply wanted you to return to some facade of positivity, for their benefit, rather than yours.
I've learnt a lot about these victim-blaming/self-responsibilisation issues through university, but never had them delivered in such a creative, crushing and intimate way. I hope you're in a better space now, but if not, that's fine. I'm always open to talk if you ever want support.