Haha, reading that post you linked and also what you wrote about freaking out/gushing over characters made me smile to myself as I imagined both in kinda cartoon form x3
I do really suck at resting, haha. I've said it a few times before, but it's as though I can't allow myself to do it unless other people give me permission to >.< I don't really know how my brain ended up broken like that! Sadly, I think it's more common today to the point that a lot of people are like that and don't even realise it, or don't see it as a negative thing.
Thankfully, participating in this wildlife challenge and reading everyone's kind words is slowly starting to make me feel like it's actually okay to take a break without beating the crap outta myself mentally for doing it x3
Going on walks at weekends with my dad has always helped to give me a brief break from my head screaming 'Do more woooork!!" at me, haha. But for the first time in a hell of a long time, I finally started to play a game without feeling guilty about it. Which sounds like such a small thing that it's kinda insane x3 but for me, it's like a breakthrough, haha.
As you say, it's like powering up :3 I've never really been able to look at like that before cos any time I've tried to rest my stupid brain has made me feel like I'm being lazy and useless >.< but I'm finally beginning to start shaking off that really toxic mindset.
I doubt my depression will ever fully go away, but I guess all you can do is try your best to live in the moment and enjoy the things that do make you smile as they come rather than doing what I do all too often and worrying about the future or fixating on the past x3
And don't worry about donating anyways :3 Thanks for taking the time to play some of my stuff and for all your kind words! I appreciate it a lot ^-^