thank you so much I'm so touched this moved you so deeply! I'm finally in a safe enough place to post the new chapters I've hoarded, I'll definitely let you know (I'll reply to this? or you can let me know a better contact! bc id love to discuss further anything in this!!! this knowing is meant for... it's meant to make people who Know feel less alone and give u ways to live and understand living and to find a path forward knowing there's someone like you out there