R: "Oh don't be like that, I did what I wanted to do and while it paid off in the end...i had to destroy whatever relationship we had!"
R: "...Do you ever wondered WHY...I drank Roman? Have you ever wondered WHY...I never looked back after I left? It was because of father...he did things to me far...FAR...worse than your Training"
(Now i know this isn't apart of the actually story but i thought i could "spice it up" juuuust a tad bit, oh and it is like...Graphic so if you don't want me to do it just let me know now)
(Oh hun I was already thinking he did that with Roman-)
"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK HE DID TO ME!? ALL THOSE-"PRIVATE LESSONS" ALL THOSE CLOSED DOOR MEETINGS-WHAT DO YOU THINK THOSE WERE!? DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW FUCKING CONFUSED I WAS!? ONE MINUTE HE HATED ME, THE NEXT MINUTE HE LOVED ME AND THE MINUTE AFTER THAT HE....I didn't know how to react-I-I didn't ever know what he wanted from me and I was numb. I was fucking numb all the time Remus-I couldn't feel, I couldn't think, I couldn't-I just-had to keep smiling....-"
R: "...D-Dammit...G-God DAMMIT...Why must my little brother go through all of this SHIT!? You didn't deserve ANYTHING Pops did, it should've been me, i was the worthless one, IVE ALWAYS HAVE BEEN, yet the one person in the family who ACTUALLY SEEMED like he had a chance in the future...he gets raped and abused...overworked to death by his OWN. FATHER!"
the last two words he hands slammed his hand against the table the say sat in...his hand was trembling slightly
"I-I never even wanted that future....I-I didn't want to be a fighter I....I-I didn't want to be like dad....I-I wanted....I wanted to be like you-even though you were an idiot, even though you made stupid life choices I-....I-I wanted to be you. I just-wanted to be free....I never thought you were worthless-if anything I thought you had a better shot at a future than I did-because at least you were actually willing to stand up for it...."
R: "R-Roman...I-I was always fucking terrified to stand up to pops...if i-i ever said anything he'd beat the shit out of me...but why do you think i seemed to stand up for it? Because it was for you...i-i'm glad you w-wanted to be me i guess b-but im nothing special...im just a worthless p-piece of shit who doesn't d-deserve a good brother like you..."
He sat his face into his arms, basically laying his head in the middle of his arms, you know what i mean -v-
"I-I'm not a good brother-I was so fucking jealous of you-all the time I-I resented you so much-I-I couldn't understand.....I-I didn't know.....you're not a piece of shit-and you're not worthless-you make someone insanely happy-so happy they couldn't bear to be away from you-a-and I...I never....I don't-have that........."