Edric,
Why. Why why WHY do you have to be so forgiving!? Why do you have to be so kind, and courageous, and handsome and SHUT UP BRAIN. I don't love you. I DON'T-Because it would be INSANE for me to love the person I'm supposed to KILL....So I don't. I. Don't. This would be so much easier if you just hated me....I wish you were angry-I WISH you'd fight me instead of holding back-and I KNOW you're holding back, I've seen you fight so many times-because instead of facing your anger, I have to face...you. Just-you, begging me to come back-and I CAN'T come back Edric, I CAN'T. Even...even if I want to. Even if I want to be with you again......it's not going to happen. It's NEVER going to happen Edric, so why...why won't you just give up and stop asking....?