he sat on his bed to read it
Edric,
Why. Why why WHY do you have to be so forgiving!? Why do you have to be so kind, and courageous, and handsome and SHUT UP BRAIN. I don't love you. I DON'T-Because it would be INSANE for me to love the person I'm supposed to KILL....So I don't. I. Don't. This would be so much easier if you just hated me....I wish you were angry-I WISH you'd fight me instead of holding back-and I KNOW you're holding back, I've seen you fight so many times-because instead of facing your anger, I have to face...you. Just-you, begging me to come back-and I CAN'T come back Edric, I CAN'T. Even...even if I want to. Even if I want to be with you again......it's not going to happen. It's NEVER going to happen Edric, so why...why won't you just give up and stop asking....?