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First let me say I'm sorry for my beginning outburst. I'm a combat vet who saw way too many friends die and brought all that home with me. I still can't let that go even seeing psychiatrists all these years. I got into Leap of Faith cause it was showing me a happier side of side even though it wasn't real. But then I found myself so attached to CeCe cause her life, dark as it was, matched mine. Many times I wished I could have done want she final did. But her life seemed to be on a good track finally and seeing her just give up like that, I just totally broke down in disbelief. Why! Was all I could say. And if she could finally do it to get away from her demons then why not me. I really feel my struggles each and every day cause I see myself and it's hell! I'm trying hard not to think, but easier said than done. Strange that I would have a date coming up soon to see my psych, but I don't know what to say to her. You have written the most incredible story I have ever read but in a way I'm sorry I read it. My brain just was not ready for that mirror to look into. Again sorry and keep writing,
First of all, thank you very much for coming back with a followup comment. I absolutely applaud you. I can fully understand reactions to this chapter, although 99.9% of them are good. Leap of Faith is very much about feelings, or rather to feel. I do know that for some feelings are hard (if you read the text at the end), but I will do my utmost to make it up to you in the following chapter, and I hope that you will find peace with your demons and can live alongside them.
Secondly, did you notice the heartbeat at the very end of this chapter?