"Oh...oh I see-love, it's just one date-i-it'll be alright-"
"No-No..you're not-you're not understanding me..she-she wants me to m-marry the prince and I don't want to...I can't do that..okay I really want to tell her about us and I really want to tell her that I like girls but I don't want to crush her like that and really do love you and I-I want to spend the rest of my life with you..there's no doubt that I don't you're so sweet and kind and caring and I love you a lot okay..but I don't want to be torn between two people it doesn't feel right to play with his heart and and it doesn't seem right to play with yours it-it..it doesn't seem okay at all, and I love you so much and I want to be with you and spend the rest of my life with you and I really want to tell my mom about us because if I do maybe she'll call off everything and you know just-just accept you for your for you..and I-I can't guarantee she will but I really do love you and I don't want to play with his heart and I don't want to play with yours and I-I...really...really just want to be with you..."
her hands placed on top of hers, tears fell even more and she sounded very desperate, desperate for an answer.
"I know but I love you and and I don't know what I'll do without you I can't keep coming over here and you know this because if one day they catch me they'll take you but I need you okay you're perfect for me I love you so much and you mean so much to me you-you make my heart flutter okay you make it happy you make you feel safe you make me feel safe you make me feel loved I feel loved..and feel happy but if I marry a prince and come and see you while I'm about to get engaged and actually marry him-I don't want him to be hurt and I don'-I don't want you look like a fool, I love you..so much but I-I don't want to be disloyal plus While We're Alone we're going to do things and I don't want to do that stuff because I am not straight I don't want that and I am still a virgin to straight people-I-I can't-how am I supposed to cope with that I don't know what to do-do I run away-but if I-if I try to run away they're going to go out and look and then go find the cottage and then you'll get taken away and I don't want that to happen...I don't want to be together with him I want to be with you but how do I do that without running away or without marrying him and being with you instead then someone eventually finds out and you'll be looking like a fool and then they'll take you away and then they'll try to get you in a dungeon or get you killed what-what do I do...baby..I-I don't.."