her hands placed on top of hers, tears fell even more and she sounded very desperate, desperate for an answer.
"I know but I love you and and I don't know what I'll do without you I can't keep coming over here and you know this because if one day they catch me they'll take you but I need you okay you're perfect for me I love you so much and you mean so much to me you-you make my heart flutter okay you make it happy you make you feel safe you make me feel safe you make me feel loved I feel loved..and feel happy but if I marry a prince and come and see you while I'm about to get engaged and actually marry him-I don't want him to be hurt and I don'-I don't want you look like a fool, I love you..so much but I-I don't want to be disloyal plus While We're Alone we're going to do things and I don't want to do that stuff because I am not straight I don't want that and I am still a virgin to straight people-I-I can't-how am I supposed to cope with that I don't know what to do-do I run away-but if I-if I try to run away they're going to go out and look and then go find the cottage and then you'll get taken away and I don't want that to happen...I don't want to be together with him I want to be with you but how do I do that without running away or without marrying him and being with you instead then someone eventually finds out and you'll be looking like a fool and then they'll take you away and then they'll try to get you in a dungeon or get you killed what-what do I do...baby..I-I don't.."